You know when you realize...
Do you guys ever have those moments... Like... these quick flashes of reality about a situation that you have been toiling over for a while? I had mine today. It was quite interesting.
I had been hopelessly in love with a straight person for about 6 months. Yeah, don't throw fucking rocks at me I know the rules bitch... but I couldn't help it. This person was all that I ever wanted, and even with all the signals going against I continued to pursue. I was at the market after I got off the phone with my boss today, and as soon as I hung up the phone, I picked up some squash, and accidently said out loud, "She will never be with you." I know it must have been odd to the people around, but I don't give a damn. At that moment, I felt so damn free. I used to go to bed thinking about her, I used to wake up thinking about her. At that moment, I let go. It was very scary and relieving to say the least. I'm not salty about the situation either, as a matter of fact, I feel a bit refreshed. I told my therapist about it, and he brought up some amazing points that I never thought of regarding this person. God damn it I felt like I was on a roll! Although I stumbled a bit in an aim conversation tonight... I knew when I talked to on her on the phone that it was confirmed. I do feel like I lost an essential part of me though... I'm hoping to gain that back. Anyways! This shit is wayyy to emo...
O.k! Check this out. For all you random people out there... travelocity has a lot of great last minute deals. I'm taking one next week... going to Niagara Falls! Has anyone ever been there? I'd love to hear some experiences if you have... and if anyone is ever interested in taking one of these random trips... let me know because we could save when we book together. Holla!
Much love,
Carla
I had been hopelessly in love with a straight person for about 6 months. Yeah, don't throw fucking rocks at me I know the rules bitch... but I couldn't help it. This person was all that I ever wanted, and even with all the signals going against I continued to pursue. I was at the market after I got off the phone with my boss today, and as soon as I hung up the phone, I picked up some squash, and accidently said out loud, "She will never be with you." I know it must have been odd to the people around, but I don't give a damn. At that moment, I felt so damn free. I used to go to bed thinking about her, I used to wake up thinking about her. At that moment, I let go. It was very scary and relieving to say the least. I'm not salty about the situation either, as a matter of fact, I feel a bit refreshed. I told my therapist about it, and he brought up some amazing points that I never thought of regarding this person. God damn it I felt like I was on a roll! Although I stumbled a bit in an aim conversation tonight... I knew when I talked to on her on the phone that it was confirmed. I do feel like I lost an essential part of me though... I'm hoping to gain that back. Anyways! This shit is wayyy to emo...
O.k! Check this out. For all you random people out there... travelocity has a lot of great last minute deals. I'm taking one next week... going to Niagara Falls! Has anyone ever been there? I'd love to hear some experiences if you have... and if anyone is ever interested in taking one of these random trips... let me know because we could save when we book together. Holla!
Much love,
Carla