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Happy Valentine's Day.
My ass. I don't give two fucks about it. If you're not with the one you care about most, then tell me. What's the point? I fucking swear, I haven't been so close to tears in so long. I know, I know. I need to pull myself together and get over it. But it's just not easy. I've tried, and tried. I actually achieved it once, but no. He has to make it so hard for me, so hard for me to do it again. I've told one person about what I've been feeling since Friday Night. And she knows who she is. I just don't fucking get it! And someone please tell me why Valentine's Day, no matter how many times I said it, I said it wouldn't get to me, and after hearing this one song -- which is at the bottom of this entry -- I was almost in tears, and almost fucking broke down. I don't get why I'm like this -- I really don't. So why is it when I need help the most, there's no one there to help?
Don't pretend you're sorry, I know you're not.
I just want it to go back to the way it was before..
You know you got the power to make me weak inside.
But why do you have to push it?
Boy you leave me breathless, but it's okay cause you are my survival.
If you're my survival, why aren't you saving me?
Now hear me say I can't imagine life without your love.
That means I have no point of going on without you..
Even forever don't seem like long enough, cause everytime I breathe I take you in, and my heart beats again.
I can't explain it -- it just happens when I see you..
Baby, I can't help it; you keep me drowing in your love. Everytime I try to rise above I'm swept away by love.
It's just something I can't explain. Simple.
So why is it just so hard? Why does it have to hurt this bad?
Brian McKnight - Every Time You Go Away
Every time that I’m with you girl
I can’t believe you share my world
But it’s real
And every time that I hold you close to me
Forever’s all that I can see
How it feels
See I don’t give a damn what my homies say
Don’t matter anyway
See I never felt this way before
You leave a brother wantin’ more
I hate to see you go
Even though I know when you’re comin’ back
It’s hard to breathe without you girl
And baby that’s a fact
I know sometimes you have to leave
But I wish you could stay
Every time you go away
From the very first time that I touched you babe
Couldn’t find the words to say you set me free
And every time that I kiss your lips
Nothin’ ever tasted quite like this
Or got so deep
See I don’t give a damn what my homies say
Don’t matter anyway
See I never ever felt this way before
You always leave me wantin’ more
I hate to see you go
Even though I know when you’re comin’ back
It’s hard to breathe without you girl
And baby that’s a fact
I know sometimes you have to leave
But I wish you could stay
Every time you go away
You’re the sunshine of my day
You brighten up my night
You take a piece of me with you
Every time you say goodbye
I hate to see you go
Even though I know when you’re comin’ back
It’s hard to breathe without you girl
And baby that’s a fact
I know sometimes you have to leave
But I wish you could stay
Every time you go away