my autobiography
for the last fuckin two weeks, and longer, ive been doing everything they ask, everything they dont ask. been doing all my chores, and more, and what do they do? stop giving me my allowence because for ONE NITE i forget to do something. what the fuck is this?
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'you dont know how it is out there' 'we do so much for you' 'look at how your acting to us' WHAT THE FUCK! i dont know how it is out there? are they fuckin nuts? ive probly been thru so much at this age that they havent been thru till 16y/o if they even go thru it! you do so much for me, I DO SO MUCH FOR YOU TOO! ONE FUCKIN NITE! how im acting to them, IM A FUCKIN TEENAGER, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO ACT TOWARDS THEM? some parents.
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i got grounded cause i stayed up past 11 on thursdae nite. HOLY SHIT! THERE WASNT EVEN SCHOOL THE NEXT DAE! last nite i had to fuckin ask permission to stay up later, and what do i get? 'why?' HOLY SHIT I HATE MY FAMILY!!
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they tell my brother to do stuff, he doesnt do it, they say he still has to, just cause he works means nothing, he doesnt do something? oh its ok. DO THEY NOT THINK MY LIFE IS HARD TOO? sure i dont work like them, and i dont have bills to pay, but im at the toughest years in life, and all they do is make it harder! im almost 14, and they wont let me do nothing! im surprised i even have a social life!
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and at school, everyone thinks im fine, they all think its ok, thats cause i dont show them my tru self, im not even close to who they think i am. still bein treated like im fuckin two years old! i cant wait to get outta this hell hole, too bad it wont be for awhile... now i mite as well go, cause if im caught up past 11, i dont get grounded during the week, but the weekends...
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something else i figured out? the fuckin cat gets treated better than me, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SHIT? and the fact that i was a mistake, not supposed to be born, how much better does that make me feel? i get treated like im nothing, probly cause i am nothing. everything thinks they know who i am, think they know me, but they dont. no one knows the real me, not even me. i lost her a long time ago. she went away, and i dont think shes ever gonna come back...
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you think you know me
word on the street is that you do
you want my history
what others tell you wont be true
i walked a thousand miles
while everyone was asleep
nobody's really seen
my million subleties
got bruises on my heart
sometimes i get dark
if you want my auto
want my autobiography
baby just ask me
i hear you talking
well its my turn now
im talking back
look in my eyes
so you can see just where im at
i walked a thousand miles
to find one river of peace
and i'll walk a million more
to find out what this shit means
i laugh more than i cry
you piss me off, goodbye
got bruises on my heart
and sometimes i get dark
if you want my auto
want my autobiography
baby, just ask me
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fuck it all
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'you dont know how it is out there' 'we do so much for you' 'look at how your acting to us' WHAT THE FUCK! i dont know how it is out there? are they fuckin nuts? ive probly been thru so much at this age that they havent been thru till 16y/o if they even go thru it! you do so much for me, I DO SO MUCH FOR YOU TOO! ONE FUCKIN NITE! how im acting to them, IM A FUCKIN TEENAGER, HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO ACT TOWARDS THEM? some parents.
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i got grounded cause i stayed up past 11 on thursdae nite. HOLY SHIT! THERE WASNT EVEN SCHOOL THE NEXT DAE! last nite i had to fuckin ask permission to stay up later, and what do i get? 'why?' HOLY SHIT I HATE MY FAMILY!!
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they tell my brother to do stuff, he doesnt do it, they say he still has to, just cause he works means nothing, he doesnt do something? oh its ok. DO THEY NOT THINK MY LIFE IS HARD TOO? sure i dont work like them, and i dont have bills to pay, but im at the toughest years in life, and all they do is make it harder! im almost 14, and they wont let me do nothing! im surprised i even have a social life!
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and at school, everyone thinks im fine, they all think its ok, thats cause i dont show them my tru self, im not even close to who they think i am. still bein treated like im fuckin two years old! i cant wait to get outta this hell hole, too bad it wont be for awhile... now i mite as well go, cause if im caught up past 11, i dont get grounded during the week, but the weekends...
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something else i figured out? the fuckin cat gets treated better than me, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SHIT? and the fact that i was a mistake, not supposed to be born, how much better does that make me feel? i get treated like im nothing, probly cause i am nothing. everything thinks they know who i am, think they know me, but they dont. no one knows the real me, not even me. i lost her a long time ago. she went away, and i dont think shes ever gonna come back...
**********
you think you know me
word on the street is that you do
you want my history
what others tell you wont be true
i walked a thousand miles
while everyone was asleep
nobody's really seen
my million subleties
got bruises on my heart
sometimes i get dark
if you want my auto
want my autobiography
baby just ask me
i hear you talking
well its my turn now
im talking back
look in my eyes
so you can see just where im at
i walked a thousand miles
to find one river of peace
and i'll walk a million more
to find out what this shit means
i laugh more than i cry
you piss me off, goodbye
got bruises on my heart
and sometimes i get dark
if you want my auto
want my autobiography
baby, just ask me
**********
fuck it all