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ya i know, i never have the title as '...' but todays diff.
in the last 24 hours, bailey, bianca, stacey, and jess all got bf's. how many people are a couple now? i feel pretty left out, like i dont belong. michael and trent, when they do stuff to me, i know its not cause they like me, is it cause they know i dont mind? so they use me to my advantage? i know im ugly, i dont hear guys 'compliment' me like they 'compliment' other people. trent, calls crystal 'dead sexie', that killed me, he said it in my face too. michael, he sorta act like he likes me, but i know he doesnt. no one does.
when i look around and see all the guys flirting with the girls, i feel so left out. marco flirting with vikki 24/7. its bad enough that im jealous of vikki, i mean she is gorgeous. im not gonna do nothing stupid, i know that. but i dunno, im so lost, confused. i wish i knew what to do, i wish i had a bf. my first and last bf was javier, how bad can that make me look? apparintly brian likes me, but i wouldnt be surprised if its just a bet, him going out with an eighter like me, that could improve his image.
yea, i like michael and trent. i know alot about trent, but it seems like we can only 'really talk' in private, and thats on msn when hes barely on. michael, i can talk to him anytime, and it seems like im a better person with him. bianca and vikki are gonna try to hook me up, but i dont want them to force him, if he doesnt wanna. aaron said he woulda gone out with me when i liked him, but he didnt wanna ruin our friendship. if thats not bull, i dunno what is...
...so much for my happy ending...
in the last 24 hours, bailey, bianca, stacey, and jess all got bf's. how many people are a couple now? i feel pretty left out, like i dont belong. michael and trent, when they do stuff to me, i know its not cause they like me, is it cause they know i dont mind? so they use me to my advantage? i know im ugly, i dont hear guys 'compliment' me like they 'compliment' other people. trent, calls crystal 'dead sexie', that killed me, he said it in my face too. michael, he sorta act like he likes me, but i know he doesnt. no one does.
when i look around and see all the guys flirting with the girls, i feel so left out. marco flirting with vikki 24/7. its bad enough that im jealous of vikki, i mean she is gorgeous. im not gonna do nothing stupid, i know that. but i dunno, im so lost, confused. i wish i knew what to do, i wish i had a bf. my first and last bf was javier, how bad can that make me look? apparintly brian likes me, but i wouldnt be surprised if its just a bet, him going out with an eighter like me, that could improve his image.
yea, i like michael and trent. i know alot about trent, but it seems like we can only 'really talk' in private, and thats on msn when hes barely on. michael, i can talk to him anytime, and it seems like im a better person with him. bianca and vikki are gonna try to hook me up, but i dont want them to force him, if he doesnt wanna. aaron said he woulda gone out with me when i liked him, but he didnt wanna ruin our friendship. if thats not bull, i dunno what is...
...so much for my happy ending...