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I thought you should have a chance to see what I look like now. I'm still sick. I still pretend I'm not. I still have dark circles around my eyes; you can't see them here thank god.. I've lost more weight. Life goes on.
But for some it doesn't.
My hero passed away last friday. One of my very best friends. I told you that my nana was diagnosed with cancer and that she'd be starting chemo. Well, she won't have a chance to do chemotherapy now.
I saw her just before she died. She reached for my hand. Mom says she didn't do that to anyone but me. I told her that I loved her and that she was my hero. She told me she loved me, but she could hardly even open her mouth.
I spoke at her funeral. I was the last speaker. I came down with a bad stomach flu the morning of her funeral and thought I wouldn't be able to speak. But I got up and did it anyway; I made up the whole thing as I went.
Man it is a bad time of year to be someone I love. 6 weeks and 3 deaths.
My nana was cremated and now I wear a necklace with her ashes inside of it. She was like a second mother to me.
1937 - 2006
"You know, when I was a little boy..."