[FIC] Like a Knife
Title : Like a Knife.
Author : Chi
Beta : Kuceen
Pairing : AKAME
Disclaimer : I wish
Rating : PG
Warnings : Jin is quiet.
Summary : Jin leaving.
A/N : um this is really inexperienced-ly written because its a first time - songfic.
I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
Kame packed his clothes into his duffel bag. The older boy standing inches away from him like an open book in which Kame could read. Before the former could say anything, he made his way into the dressing room after their dancing rehearsal.
“Jin, you really don’t have to apologize. Its fine, I understand if you want to leave.”
And that hurt. Jin wanted so much as to say something but his intention died when he saw Kame’s face as the latter passed by him.
Those tears were fresh.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
“You can do anything you want. The world is yours. I’m sure you wouldn’t like if the five of us mourning over your absence, so we got used to it already. You left once, remember?”
Kame said the night before when they hung out with other members from NEWS in a bar.
They were left alone in a corner after everyone had gone back.
Kame left without waiting for an answer from Jin.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
“Maybe we’ll feel better if we put an end to this right now.” Kame said, three nights ago.
“It’s not your fault, its mine.”
Jin didn’t reply as his eyes were the witnesses of the sad face that belonged to Kame as the latter left the keys to his apartment on the table before slamming the door shut.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away.
“Where’s Kame?” Yamapi asked as he hugged his best friend, bidding farewell at the terminal’s threshold.
Jin shook his head. “I don’t know.”
Yamapi nodded and waved a goodbye before his eyes left Jin’s figure, slowly entering the terminal without looking back.
Kame wiped his tear as he turned around from the plant, where he stood and walked away.
'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.
Jin saw the back of the obvious silhouette walked out of the automatic door. He gripped tightly on the handle of his luggage.
‘You can do anything you want’ were Kame’s words when Jin had called him the morning before his flight.
Kame immediately hung up on the older boy, with no hesitation.
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
So there he stood, under the pouring rain. Watching from below, the place that once shared together by the two of them.
Jin wasn’t here.
He could cry all he wanted to. It was raining and nobody would realize the tears when he cries under the rain.
He wished Jin was here.
These streets are filled with memories
Both good for detected pain.
There were countless times when they went for dates, under disguises and simply enjoying their walk with fingers tangled between one another.
They would watch movies and spending their days off with useless activities like standing in front of a sex shop doing nothing while suppressing their laughter with what could be playing in their minds.
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.
He had heard about Jin’s upcoming departure a week before the older boy would tell it to his face.
He couldn’t believe his ears when he heard it and for the whole week before he had drowned himself in works, then he would go to the shrine and writing down his wish on the small wooden block and hangs it with the others.
‘I wish Jin will decide not to leave.’
It was after the PV rehearsal and Kame knew it would be the last of Jin being together with the five of them but Kame didn’t speak with the other as he strolled to the dressing room.
He realized Jin was following his form quietly behind.
Trying his best to control the pooling tears, he covered his shaky voice with harsh words.
He was mean because he knew he had to.
But Jin had no clue that his silence for the whole time when Kame spoke actually hurt the younger boy too.
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A/N 2 : um the song used is Secondhand Serenade's Like a Knife, btw.