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Today was not a good day. Well, actually, last night into today was not good. Things between Katie and I are still the same as usual. She ignores me, I try and make things okay. She says something rude and hurtful and I sit and take it. Yesterday I accidentally sent her a text message that was supposed to be for Christine, but it my frustration, I sent it to Katie. Dumb, yes. Of course, to add insult to injury, it was about her, but nothing bad, just how she was bothering me. But I had to tell her because she approached me and asked why I sent her a text. Ooops..... anyway, she's befriended Tori and Angie, but it's all so fake. She's fine telling me to stop doing somethign that they are obviously allowed to do. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown last night. I just can't take it anymore. I start thinking about people on campus and who I'm friends with and I just feel so alone. I worry about rooming next semester and what's going to happen with that. It all just piles on to my shoulders and I freak out. I woke up this morning and sat in the common room and just cried. I'm just unhappy. I like Oneonta, I really do. People are nice ( most of them) and I'm doing well in my classes, but I regret never really reaching out and making more good friends. I have Christine, but I don't really consider anyone close like her. I don't know what I'm babbling on about, but things are just not good.