The Days Fly By
It's been a little bit since I've written in my LJ. I figured I'd get around to it again because I think it is beneficial to write things out & try to make sense out of everything that happens on a day to day basis or just remember it.
Lately I seem to have so many things swarming through my head. I don't know where to begin or end. I can't believe August is almost upon us already. It's amazing how fast time seems to be flying by as of late.
Nothing too terribly exciting happening out this way. I guess to sum what I've been up to: life's has its ups & downs ... you just roll with the punches.
Hmm ... other than that, in the past several months we celebrated my brother's birthday ... E's 'rent's anniversary ... mother's day ... father's day ... E's sis's birthday ... my b-day. That's really as far as it goes for events, nothing too crazy. Financially things are, I guess strained would be the right word for it. I'm sure things will work themselves out, after all I've made it this far already.
I guess a problem I keep seeming to grasp back onto is shutting everyone out. I've been doing my best to avoid anyone & everyone at all costs for the most part. I've had a not healthy mentality of "if I avoid everyone & having nothing to do with anyone - no way can hurt me or do anything to me." The only problem with that outlook on things is that you shut yourself off from all the positive things, the negative & unpleasant moments are far & few in between ... though it truly seems a very human problem is to focus more so on the negative moments rather than the other 95% of life that is a lot more fulfilling, we just let all the negativity engulf us & take over.
So I suppose this is one small step to getting back to what I want & to being more positive. I know I need to stop shutting everyone out & dropping off the face of the earth, so that is something I am doing. Slowly but surely I am getting back in touch with everyone I shut out. I guess the only problem will be if anyone else wants to let me back in, ne? o_O That's life though, you live & learn.
I foresee a lot of big changes in the coming months to the next year or two, I guess there isn't much point in going into it because a lot of things are just in the idea stages and are nothing more than talk ... aside from that I don't want to go on about my whole life story since that isn't what it is ... just thoughts & ideas & time will tell if they will be what is best to act upon.
I best run for now it's about dinner time (though I am not really hungry o_O;;) ... I'll be writing much more regularly now, so until later ^_- Bai Bai!
BTW - How is the layout change? xD I've been trying to change mine forever & I could never figure it out before, but I actually got it to post properly! XD
Lately I seem to have so many things swarming through my head. I don't know where to begin or end. I can't believe August is almost upon us already. It's amazing how fast time seems to be flying by as of late.
Nothing too terribly exciting happening out this way. I guess to sum what I've been up to: life's has its ups & downs ... you just roll with the punches.
Hmm ... other than that, in the past several months we celebrated my brother's birthday ... E's 'rent's anniversary ... mother's day ... father's day ... E's sis's birthday ... my b-day. That's really as far as it goes for events, nothing too crazy. Financially things are, I guess strained would be the right word for it. I'm sure things will work themselves out, after all I've made it this far already.
I guess a problem I keep seeming to grasp back onto is shutting everyone out. I've been doing my best to avoid anyone & everyone at all costs for the most part. I've had a not healthy mentality of "if I avoid everyone & having nothing to do with anyone - no way can hurt me or do anything to me." The only problem with that outlook on things is that you shut yourself off from all the positive things, the negative & unpleasant moments are far & few in between ... though it truly seems a very human problem is to focus more so on the negative moments rather than the other 95% of life that is a lot more fulfilling, we just let all the negativity engulf us & take over.
So I suppose this is one small step to getting back to what I want & to being more positive. I know I need to stop shutting everyone out & dropping off the face of the earth, so that is something I am doing. Slowly but surely I am getting back in touch with everyone I shut out. I guess the only problem will be if anyone else wants to let me back in, ne? o_O That's life though, you live & learn.
I foresee a lot of big changes in the coming months to the next year or two, I guess there isn't much point in going into it because a lot of things are just in the idea stages and are nothing more than talk ... aside from that I don't want to go on about my whole life story since that isn't what it is ... just thoughts & ideas & time will tell if they will be what is best to act upon.
I best run for now it's about dinner time (though I am not really hungry o_O;;) ... I'll be writing much more regularly now, so until later ^_- Bai Bai!
BTW - How is the layout change? xD I've been trying to change mine forever & I could never figure it out before, but I actually got it to post properly! XD