Cycle of My Life
Lately, I've had a lot of time to myself. To think about my life and all it's possibilities. Then, to realize that those dreams will not be achieved anywhere in the near future. As ominous and depressing as everything seems, I think i'm slowly starting to come to terms with it. This has been, by far, one of the worst summers of my life. Yet at the same time, I feel less affected by it then I have been about other minuscule things.
One of the things I had been working for throughout my first year of college, was ensuring that I would be able to return to the one place where I felt as if I actually had control of my life, UCSD. Within the first two weeks of summer, everything has changed and the sense of security I naively told myself I had, disappeared. I 99% sure that I will not be returning to UCSD next year. But I know that no matter how much I cry, kick and scream, nothing will change. So instead of spending my time whining about life, I've decided to accept it.
College life, was one of the craziest, most drama filled, yet oddly exciting things that had happened to me. To taste the bait and have it yanked away before you could have another bite is one of the most difficult things to deal with. But that's how the world works. Life isn't fair, it never was. I think I had a hope in my heart...that somehow, a miracle would happen and all would be great and dandy...but I guess I'm no longer a child am I? This is the real world and it's really time to start growing up. One can't just sit there and expect the world to hand them their dreams on a silver platter.
If there is a rock in the middle of the road, the fastest way is to walk over it. If you encounter a boulder, the smartest way is to walk around it. But when you encounter a mountain, what do you do then? Mountains may seem enormous and intimidating, but in the end, it is just a big collection of the small rocks you easily tread on and the big boulders you maneuvered around. Life is the same. Life throws you many obstacles, some big, some small, but life gives you another thing as well: opportunities to overcome them. With one problem, comes many possible solutions. It is up to the person walking down that path, to decide which method is more suitable for them. Whether it be to climb over that mountain, walk around it or simply book a plane and fly over it. The point is, each choice has it's cost and benefits, but you have to be the one to take it.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is that right now, right here. I feel the same way. This is simply another obstacle I must overcome...and sure, it might take awhile, and yes it will be hard, but I think I'm okay. Because I know, that even after this hm...mountain..=) there will be an ocean far greater and more perilous to cross.
One of the things I had been working for throughout my first year of college, was ensuring that I would be able to return to the one place where I felt as if I actually had control of my life, UCSD. Within the first two weeks of summer, everything has changed and the sense of security I naively told myself I had, disappeared. I 99% sure that I will not be returning to UCSD next year. But I know that no matter how much I cry, kick and scream, nothing will change. So instead of spending my time whining about life, I've decided to accept it.
College life, was one of the craziest, most drama filled, yet oddly exciting things that had happened to me. To taste the bait and have it yanked away before you could have another bite is one of the most difficult things to deal with. But that's how the world works. Life isn't fair, it never was. I think I had a hope in my heart...that somehow, a miracle would happen and all would be great and dandy...but I guess I'm no longer a child am I? This is the real world and it's really time to start growing up. One can't just sit there and expect the world to hand them their dreams on a silver platter.
If there is a rock in the middle of the road, the fastest way is to walk over it. If you encounter a boulder, the smartest way is to walk around it. But when you encounter a mountain, what do you do then? Mountains may seem enormous and intimidating, but in the end, it is just a big collection of the small rocks you easily tread on and the big boulders you maneuvered around. Life is the same. Life throws you many obstacles, some big, some small, but life gives you another thing as well: opportunities to overcome them. With one problem, comes many possible solutions. It is up to the person walking down that path, to decide which method is more suitable for them. Whether it be to climb over that mountain, walk around it or simply book a plane and fly over it. The point is, each choice has it's cost and benefits, but you have to be the one to take it.
I guess what I'm trying to get at is that right now, right here. I feel the same way. This is simply another obstacle I must overcome...and sure, it might take awhile, and yes it will be hard, but I think I'm okay. Because I know, that even after this hm...mountain..=) there will be an ocean far greater and more perilous to cross.