Counting Down
Two Forty Three...am...yet I still lay here, staring blankly at my computer. My eyes want to shut close, welcome the comforting feeling we all call sleep, yet my mind feels restless, pondering over the events of the past few weeks. What's puzzling, however, is that nothing has really occurred in the past few weeks, yet my mind won't stop thinking. Maybe it is the fact that nothing has happened that makes me feel so unsettled, so uncomfortable. It seems as if someone deep down, I know something will go wrong, it always does.
Anyway, today I got to talk to Mrs. Minji Kim once again. I must say it's nice seeing how she has such a tight schedule it's so difficult to get in touch with her! She came into our room today, to tell me about the girl from church she was having issues with. Slowly, but surely, that conversation led into...but of course, guys. We started discussing the guys at UCSD...^^" and how 'spazzable' they really were. Sadly, we have both come to a conclusion...that we are depressed due to the lack of boys at our school. We feel as if our prior pretty boy Andrew has lost his spark and due to unlucky circumstances we have discovered that our so called 'Nicholas Teo look alike' has...a girlfriend!!! Oh dear...what to do?!
But as the conversation continued we discussed things such as Valentines Day and boyfriends...etc and I told her about my current passing 'crush'. Only to find out more depressing news. It's sad when your deepest fears are confirmed ;o;...ah well, what can you do? I guess everything is a disappointment when you expect a drama like life~ Those cute, assertive yet caring boys just don't seem to exist anymore. And even if they do, they only go for the coke bottle girls or the pale skin model look alikes. As much as the world refuses to admit it, we are be coming more and more shallow each day...yes, even i will admit that looks do matter...but for a girl it's different. Though looks do matter, personality will always go above others. Unfortunately for guys, I doubt it is the same. Everything I see a couple, it always seems as if the female is better lookin that then male. Yes this is a generalization and of course there are exceptions, but the truth is, this applies to the majority...I may be wrong...rather...I hope I'm wrong...because as any other girl, I want to be able to dream of that 'perfect guy' despite being imperfect myself.
Anyway, today I got to talk to Mrs. Minji Kim once again. I must say it's nice seeing how she has such a tight schedule it's so difficult to get in touch with her! She came into our room today, to tell me about the girl from church she was having issues with. Slowly, but surely, that conversation led into...but of course, guys. We started discussing the guys at UCSD...^^" and how 'spazzable' they really were. Sadly, we have both come to a conclusion...that we are depressed due to the lack of boys at our school. We feel as if our prior pretty boy Andrew has lost his spark and due to unlucky circumstances we have discovered that our so called 'Nicholas Teo look alike' has...a girlfriend!!! Oh dear...what to do?!
But as the conversation continued we discussed things such as Valentines Day and boyfriends...etc and I told her about my current passing 'crush'. Only to find out more depressing news. It's sad when your deepest fears are confirmed ;o;...ah well, what can you do? I guess everything is a disappointment when you expect a drama like life~ Those cute, assertive yet caring boys just don't seem to exist anymore. And even if they do, they only go for the coke bottle girls or the pale skin model look alikes. As much as the world refuses to admit it, we are be coming more and more shallow each day...yes, even i will admit that looks do matter...but for a girl it's different. Though looks do matter, personality will always go above others. Unfortunately for guys, I doubt it is the same. Everything I see a couple, it always seems as if the female is better lookin that then male. Yes this is a generalization and of course there are exceptions, but the truth is, this applies to the majority...I may be wrong...rather...I hope I'm wrong...because as any other girl, I want to be able to dream of that 'perfect guy' despite being imperfect myself.