Too much
Freya is the cutest kitty in the world, if only for me and Jeff.
I'm using the laptop I'm borrowing from Stefan again in the bedroom, and she's sharing the bed with me. I looked over at her just before I started this, and she's laying in a perfect circle, all tucked in under herself. I couldn't resist laying atop her, with my arm around her back to scritch her head. Oh the purring she makes! :D
However, that was not the point of the entry.
I need someone to show me how to start, and having started, keep going. Once I'm there, I'm fine. Once I'm there you can leave me completely alone and I'll get done whatever needs to get done. I just need a push. So far, although I feel like I'm going, I don't think I'm going fast enough or far enough, and I don't know if I'm too unsure or too scared to go faster or further.
Or I need to just pick myself up by the seat of my pants and DO.
*sigh*
I keep telling myself that, but I can never seem to get through to myself, as strange and uncontrolled as that sounds.
Also, possibly because of all that, I find that I'm not looking forward to this coming weekend as much as I think I should be.
Jeff and I have been together three years (<3) as of this past Saturday (6/14), and as a present I got us tickets to go see Jonathan Coulton in NYC this coming Saturday. (Also playing: Paul and Storm, two members of DaVinci's notebook, who I don't know much about except for 'Enormous Penis' and what little I've gotten through MJ and the other Ohioans)
Or it may just be because I'm feeling extra blah today due to some dizziness earlier on, so I'll most likely be giddy by the time we get in the car to go.
We were poking his site last night and I found 'My Beige Bear' for the first time, which has prompted me to bring Toby along for the ride, despite the fact that he is brown. (See default icon) More on that after it happens.
I may need to have a bit of GT with the people I haven't yet, or more with the ones I have. If I get to be a bother about it, just tell me and I'll not prod you for answers you most likely don't have XP
I love all of you. I really do.
Don't let my silence in here, or at you make you think any differently. I've always been a bit of one, but my social reclusion has become worse recently, and I'm doing my best to fight it. Help me do that, if you want. Drag me out of my damn apartment if you want to. I'll do my best to see your efforts are not wasted.
~*Kitty
I'm using the laptop I'm borrowing from Stefan again in the bedroom, and she's sharing the bed with me. I looked over at her just before I started this, and she's laying in a perfect circle, all tucked in under herself. I couldn't resist laying atop her, with my arm around her back to scritch her head. Oh the purring she makes! :D
However, that was not the point of the entry.
I need someone to show me how to start, and having started, keep going. Once I'm there, I'm fine. Once I'm there you can leave me completely alone and I'll get done whatever needs to get done. I just need a push. So far, although I feel like I'm going, I don't think I'm going fast enough or far enough, and I don't know if I'm too unsure or too scared to go faster or further.
Or I need to just pick myself up by the seat of my pants and DO.
*sigh*
I keep telling myself that, but I can never seem to get through to myself, as strange and uncontrolled as that sounds.
Also, possibly because of all that, I find that I'm not looking forward to this coming weekend as much as I think I should be.
Jeff and I have been together three years (<3) as of this past Saturday (6/14), and as a present I got us tickets to go see Jonathan Coulton in NYC this coming Saturday. (Also playing: Paul and Storm, two members of DaVinci's notebook, who I don't know much about except for 'Enormous Penis' and what little I've gotten through MJ and the other Ohioans)
Or it may just be because I'm feeling extra blah today due to some dizziness earlier on, so I'll most likely be giddy by the time we get in the car to go.
We were poking his site last night and I found 'My Beige Bear' for the first time, which has prompted me to bring Toby along for the ride, despite the fact that he is brown. (See default icon) More on that after it happens.
I may need to have a bit of GT with the people I haven't yet, or more with the ones I have. If I get to be a bother about it, just tell me and I'll not prod you for answers you most likely don't have XP
I love all of you. I really do.
Don't let my silence in here, or at you make you think any differently. I've always been a bit of one, but my social reclusion has become worse recently, and I'm doing my best to fight it. Help me do that, if you want. Drag me out of my damn apartment if you want to. I'll do my best to see your efforts are not wasted.
~*Kitty