Behind the shadows.
Title: Behind the shadows.
Author: chibinen
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG? lol idk maybe G? ToT
A/N: just wanted to reminisce the old yamachii times. it's long but please bare with it. :)
Disclaimer: Gif not mine. Credits to owner. ^^
I love him. I really do..
For almost 4 years I've been trying to hide everything that's inside of me. My feelings for him, they won't change. I will always love him and he will always have a special spot in my heart no matter what even when for him, I'm just a little brother..a cute pet..someone beyond my expectations.
The first day I met him was when I moved from Shizuoka to Tokyo. At that time, I was really nervous but unexpectedly he came and asked me what's wrong. I was really happy. I knew it was wrong but starting from that day on wards, I started to like him.
It was funny because everyone were trying to put us up together always. During photo shoots, PVs, CMs, shows, movies, tv shows...I was happy. They even told us we look great together.
I don't really see a relationship in our future. It would be terrible if I confess to him because it will destroy the great friendship we have. We're so perfect as friends, you know? I can tell him anything and everything. I wouldn't want to ruin a friendship like that. Well, if we started dating, it would only complicate this wonderful setup I've got going here. Besides, he loves me...just as a close friend. No more, no less. We're best friends, and I hate myself for desperately wanting to change that.
When it hits me, I cry. All the things he do every time we have concerts in front of the crowd are just mere fan services. And I have to accept that. The fact that every time he hugs me, touches me..all those moments they're all just for the fans. Telling me he loves me, telling me he wants a date the next day, telling me he's jealous, telling me I'm cute..they're all just lies! I hate it that all the things he do, make it seem like love. But then again, it's not.
I love him that much that it hurts my head. I look at him and it hurts so much that I can't do anything about these feelings. It hurts to know that whatever happens we can't be together. The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most, so I’ll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt he'll even know.
Wait. I need to wake up. I shouldn't look at him like that. I should now my limitations, right? But how can I when every time he's by my side my heart thumps and I find it hard to breathe? :( He's funny and amazing, any girl would really be lucky to have him. This is all wrong. My feelings for him, it's not appropriate. I would be able to find other girls out there, I know it. But I can tell that no one can be compared to him. ♥
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A/N: Comments are loved. :(
Author: chibinen
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG? lol idk maybe G? ToT
A/N: just wanted to reminisce the old yamachii times. it's long but please bare with it. :)
Disclaimer: Gif not mine. Credits to owner. ^^
I love him. I really do..
For almost 4 years I've been trying to hide everything that's inside of me. My feelings for him, they won't change. I will always love him and he will always have a special spot in my heart no matter what even when for him, I'm just a little brother..a cute pet..someone beyond my expectations.
The first day I met him was when I moved from Shizuoka to Tokyo. At that time, I was really nervous but unexpectedly he came and asked me what's wrong. I was really happy. I knew it was wrong but starting from that day on wards, I started to like him.
It was funny because everyone were trying to put us up together always. During photo shoots, PVs, CMs, shows, movies, tv shows...I was happy. They even told us we look great together.
I don't really see a relationship in our future. It would be terrible if I confess to him because it will destroy the great friendship we have. We're so perfect as friends, you know? I can tell him anything and everything. I wouldn't want to ruin a friendship like that. Well, if we started dating, it would only complicate this wonderful setup I've got going here. Besides, he loves me...just as a close friend. No more, no less. We're best friends, and I hate myself for desperately wanting to change that.
When it hits me, I cry. All the things he do every time we have concerts in front of the crowd are just mere fan services. And I have to accept that. The fact that every time he hugs me, touches me..all those moments they're all just for the fans. Telling me he loves me, telling me he wants a date the next day, telling me he's jealous, telling me I'm cute..they're all just lies! I hate it that all the things he do, make it seem like love. But then again, it's not.
I love him that much that it hurts my head. I look at him and it hurts so much that I can't do anything about these feelings. It hurts to know that whatever happens we can't be together. The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most, so I’ll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt he'll even know.
Wait. I need to wake up. I shouldn't look at him like that. I should now my limitations, right? But how can I when every time he's by my side my heart thumps and I find it hard to breathe? :( He's funny and amazing, any girl would really be lucky to have him. This is all wrong. My feelings for him, it's not appropriate. I would be able to find other girls out there, I know it. But I can tell that no one can be compared to him. ♥
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A/N: Comments are loved. :(