One step forword, ten steps back
My english used to be a lot richer and better than it is now. I used to "talk" english on the messanger and read fanfics non-stop, plus I used cool expressions like *is really dead now* XP and more than just two smilies.
Ah youth, why did you abandom me? I LOVED being underage. If the 15 years old me saw the current me (or the last uear me [that wasn't me -_-]) she's kill me and never sighn the army form.
I had so much more spare time compered to now and though it wasn't perfect (Riku and Sora's unfulfilled love still hurts me) it was good and I knew it. I KNEW IT. It's hard to get excited about new anime and day dream. So true that the army ate my life away along with the uneccesery "love" incident X_x (Yes, I _do_ try to imitate my old writing style, so?)
I could day dream about impossible stuff and it bothered me that it was impossible but I still did it. Now I don't dream of the impossible, I don't dream at all - no time.
I wish I was Sora... (he's so lucky)
Vacations are good. I AM recovering and though I'm just trying very hard to be more optimistic I _do_ beleive I can recover from becoming adoult. Or not, maybe just get to the same... something I lost along the way. The same me. I think it's possible cause I'm over the _stuff_ I did last year and now I'm back at the point where I wouldn't do or like the things I did.
Becoming more meture means becoming less happy but -
I don't feel like giving up yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You hear me, world?!?!?!?!?!?! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!! I WILL WIN THIS!!!! ><""""""""
Ah youth, why did you abandom me? I LOVED being underage. If the 15 years old me saw the current me (or the last uear me [that wasn't me -_-]) she's kill me and never sighn the army form.
I had so much more spare time compered to now and though it wasn't perfect (Riku and Sora's unfulfilled love still hurts me) it was good and I knew it. I KNEW IT. It's hard to get excited about new anime and day dream. So true that the army ate my life away along with the uneccesery "love" incident X_x (Yes, I _do_ try to imitate my old writing style, so?)
I could day dream about impossible stuff and it bothered me that it was impossible but I still did it. Now I don't dream of the impossible, I don't dream at all - no time.
I wish I was Sora... (he's so lucky)
Vacations are good. I AM recovering and though I'm just trying very hard to be more optimistic I _do_ beleive I can recover from becoming adoult. Or not, maybe just get to the same... something I lost along the way. The same me. I think it's possible cause I'm over the _stuff_ I did last year and now I'm back at the point where I wouldn't do or like the things I did.
Becoming more meture means becoming less happy but -
I don't feel like giving up yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You hear me, world?!?!?!?!?!?! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!! I WILL WIN THIS!!!! ><""""""""