Alone again
I was supposed to have plans for this weekend but I canceled it all. I was too stressed. A bit sad , too. I guess I'm still trying to make the people I care about happy, but I can't forget about myself and do it on the expense of my own time. I can't help or be nice to anyone if I'm all tired and depressed, ne? Sometimes I tend to forget that.
There's this thing that's been tormenting me for a long time, it seems, and it's getting hard to ignore it because it can't be helped. I'm doing my best but it still hurts. Can anything really change for the best if it's still there? I don't think so. Not really. I'm just glad nothing bad happened yet. Not that I hope it'll change. I'm tired of false hopes, they suck.
I'm pretty proud of myself for not doing anything drastic, so far. It's true that I still crack a bit of tears here and there but it's not as bad as before. I hope I can keep this up.
I downloaded Interstella 5555. It ended in one day. Wow, I'm not used for torrents with so many seeds XD I watched it yesterday and it was one of the best things I've seen. It was exactly what the doctor ordered ;P I like electronic music. It calms me. And I like computers. My computer to be exact. It's the window to the world of happiness. It gives me music, Anime, information, anything I want. I never talks back or demands or complains. Sometimes it gets a virus but that because there are evil people out there...
I... need... a... VACATION!!!! A LONG VACATION!!!! ABROAD!!!!!!!!! WITH LOTS OF MONEY AND FUN COMPANY!!!!!!!!!!
There's this thing that's been tormenting me for a long time, it seems, and it's getting hard to ignore it because it can't be helped. I'm doing my best but it still hurts. Can anything really change for the best if it's still there? I don't think so. Not really. I'm just glad nothing bad happened yet. Not that I hope it'll change. I'm tired of false hopes, they suck.
I'm pretty proud of myself for not doing anything drastic, so far. It's true that I still crack a bit of tears here and there but it's not as bad as before. I hope I can keep this up.
I downloaded Interstella 5555. It ended in one day. Wow, I'm not used for torrents with so many seeds XD I watched it yesterday and it was one of the best things I've seen. It was exactly what the doctor ordered ;P I like electronic music. It calms me. And I like computers. My computer to be exact. It's the window to the world of happiness. It gives me music, Anime, information, anything I want. I never talks back or demands or complains. Sometimes it gets a virus but that because there are evil people out there...
I... need... a... VACATION!!!! A LONG VACATION!!!! ABROAD!!!!!!!!! WITH LOTS OF MONEY AND FUN COMPANY!!!!!!!!!!