Weak Week
Not a single relaxing evening at home. Mentally I'm kinda OK but physically I'm totally KO.
Guarding duties are becoming a real pain in the ass. And my back oO;; It was on Sunday and it screwed up my whole week.
I was so tired I only slept when I got home on Monday [which took 2 hours, getting home]. I even had plans to meet a friend but it got canceled because of it. I just fell into my bed and slept the whole day long.
On Tuesday, daylight guarding. A complete waste of time and I get nothing out of it, just a regular day, with a weapon almost 1/4 of my weight to walk around with.
Wednesday had a 2.5 hours trip to every direction. Need I add more?
So basically, the only normal work day was Thursday. Not that it changed the fact I got yelled at for 3 days for not finishing something I thought I could finish on Tuesday. Well fuck you, motherfucker! When I was supposed to do this?! Fuck you!!! How dare you even come complaining when I do everything right and everything I've done works perfectly??? Stupid wanna-be good-guy ASS.
And today [Saturday], was supposed to free but I've completely forgot about the party my family is holding today in the forest. I'm so stupid for promising people to meet them while I can't -_-" I wish they'd jest accept it that I don't have time [cause I really don't] and wouldn't have to book out every single free day I have. I need it for rest, after all.
On a more optimistic manner, yesterday's Go meeting was fun. The people, at start, seemed a bit too young but later I've seen they're just fine. Some are even Anime lovers - my kind of people.
Also, it turns out I don't completely suck at this game and if I put my mind into it I can get pretty good. Hopefully, the next 2 weeks will be less stressed *is sooo fooling herself, no thing as no stress in the army*
By the way, things are getting into the new order and nice changes are beginning to blossom, though I'm quite sure it's not gonna rise much more than it is now. My poor heart, no one is taking care of your wounds, huh?...
Guarding duties are becoming a real pain in the ass. And my back oO;; It was on Sunday and it screwed up my whole week.
I was so tired I only slept when I got home on Monday [which took 2 hours, getting home]. I even had plans to meet a friend but it got canceled because of it. I just fell into my bed and slept the whole day long.
On Tuesday, daylight guarding. A complete waste of time and I get nothing out of it, just a regular day, with a weapon almost 1/4 of my weight to walk around with.
Wednesday had a 2.5 hours trip to every direction. Need I add more?
So basically, the only normal work day was Thursday. Not that it changed the fact I got yelled at for 3 days for not finishing something I thought I could finish on Tuesday. Well fuck you, motherfucker! When I was supposed to do this?! Fuck you!!! How dare you even come complaining when I do everything right and everything I've done works perfectly??? Stupid wanna-be good-guy ASS.
And today [Saturday], was supposed to free but I've completely forgot about the party my family is holding today in the forest. I'm so stupid for promising people to meet them while I can't -_-" I wish they'd jest accept it that I don't have time [cause I really don't] and wouldn't have to book out every single free day I have. I need it for rest, after all.
On a more optimistic manner, yesterday's Go meeting was fun. The people, at start, seemed a bit too young but later I've seen they're just fine. Some are even Anime lovers - my kind of people.
Also, it turns out I don't completely suck at this game and if I put my mind into it I can get pretty good. Hopefully, the next 2 weeks will be less stressed *is sooo fooling herself, no thing as no stress in the army*
By the way, things are getting into the new order and nice changes are beginning to blossom, though I'm quite sure it's not gonna rise much more than it is now. My poor heart, no one is taking care of your wounds, huh?...