~What is "Right"? (3/7)~
Title: What is "Right"? (3/7)
Author: Jen
Pairing: RyuShin (Ryutaro x Shintaro)
Genre: Fluff, Romance, & Angst
Rating: PG
Words: 1284
Summary: Ryutaro hits puberty and realizes that his affection for his younger brother isn't so brotherly.
Notes: Oops, forgot the change the note last time. LOL
Don't worry everyone~ As long as I have a fic posted, you'll know I'm still alive. xD RL has caught up to meh~ xD And it will continue until meh last day of school which ish June 24th~ xD
Comments are really appreciated! xD
Previous: Chappy 1, Chappy 1.5, Chappy 2
Ryutaro's POV
14 years old going on 15. Still in puberty. Having way more fun. Endless hormones, even more emo-ing, and knowing too much about... stuff. About my own little brother.
Who now thinks I'm annoying and possibly hates me. How that ended up happening... well it's thanks to me. I pushed him away for his own good. Really, I did. For both our sake's.
I had originally planned to ignore him completely but somehow I had found myself following wherever he went. Like... for instance, whenever he wanted to go out and play, I had to be there with him. Plus my parents would think I'm one awesome, caring brother who looks after his little brother. I like to think I'm awesome....
Anyways, I had debuted with Hey! Say! JUMP two years ago, while Shintaro was still with the juniors. And I had noticed he was getting closer to one particular junior, Nakayama Yuma. Coincidentally, they were in a drama together as siblings: Battery. Even though it's been such a long time since I saw that drama, somehow I could only remember that one particular scene... where Shintaro was crying... and then he had to just hug him for who knows how long... half dressed! I remember wanting to throw my drink at the screen when I saw that part. Only I could do that.
Wow... I sound really possessive. But I swear, I'm not the slightest bit jealous. And I'm not in denial, okay?
By the way, I am so not pissed off about that bastard pinning Shintaro down on the bed and almost biting his neck in a really wrong position. Though I don't really want to admit that I had wanted to be in that guy's position... I shouldn't be thinking about stuff like that right now.
Our parents left to have their honeymoon trip, leaving us both alone with a new babysitter. Too bad, this babysitter was exactly like the other one except more experienced with it. Not like I cared. Well... sort of. It's a bad thing because... I'm alone with Shintaro and then too many thoughts go through my head.
Shintaro came out of his room, all dressed up with a small bag over his shoulder.
"Where are you going?" I asked. Shintaro didn't have school nor practice. He finished filming for the Snow Prince movie. What else was there?
"I'm going to Yuma-nii's house," he answered while grabbing the keys from the drawer.
My demeanor instantly grew hard as I stepped right in front of him and snatched the keys away. Since when did Shintaro call him by his first name and even added the older brother honorific? Now that I thought about it... Shintaro had said he wanted Nakayama as his brother before. My fingers curled up into a fist, remembering.
"What was that for?!" Shintaro exclaimed, his eyes glaring at me.
I bit my bottom lip, seeing Shintaro's defiance for the first time with that annoyed, frustrated expression. If anyone should be annoyed or frustrated, it should be me! "You can't go!" I yelled at him without meaning to. I let my emotions take hold of me.
"Why not?!" Shintaro protested, eyes flaring.
"Because I say so!" I lamely told him, taking the keys and stuffing them in my pockets. Then I proceeded in pushing Shintaro to his room. "Now be a good little brother and stay in there until it's dinner time."
Shintaro had struggled along the way but obviously I was stronger. "I want to go!"
"Shut up. You're being noisy and annoying," I growled at him before effectively shoving him in and locking the door.
I sighed, trying to calm myself down. Maybe I should take anger management classes... but how could I help it? I couldn't stand knowing that Shintaro was getting chummy with Nakayama. I guess, what I feared the most was Shintaro... falling for Nakayama. I know, I couldn't be any lamer. Locking my own brother in his room. That was a bit out of hand...
I messed up my own hair out of irritation, going to my bedroom. I"ll apologize later and unlock the door soon after this heavy feeling in my heart goes away...
~~~
Shintaro's POV
12 years old. And my current state: Emo-ing in my room. More like, I can't get out since my stupid brother locked me in here. He's always so unfair! I let out a noise of frustration and laid on my bed, staring up at the ceiling as the events replayed in my head.
"Where are you going?" Nii-chan seemed worried about where I was going to be.
"I'm going to Yuma-nii's house." Not like I wanted to stay in the house with nii-chan all day. It was boring without someone to play with. Plus Yuma-nii is really fun! We've been in two dramas together and are really close! Most of the time, I wished that he was my brother instead of nii-chan. Yuma-nii is more like the old nii-chan... but that nii-chan is gone now...
When Ryutaro jerked the keys out of my hands unexpectedly, I cried out, "What was that for?!" This had never happened before. Usually, I can go out with my friends but this time... he won't let me... why? And even if I could, he would still follow!
"You can't go!" Ryutaro insisted with a loud voice. The loudness rang in my ears. He's so scary when he's mad at me... though I'm not sure why he's mad at me. What did I do wrong? I could think of nothing. Nothing!
"Why not?!" I retorted, wondering why he was being so unreasonable. I glowered at him, too.
"Because I say so!" he replied before making me go to my room along with keeping the keys. "Now be a good little brother and stay in there until it's dinner time." Dinner time? But what about lunch? How does that make sense?
"I want to go!" I wailed, flailing my arms about but it was of no use. Nii-chan was just too strong... and so stubborn. It's practically impossible to change his mind once he had made it up.
"Shut up. You're being noisy and annoying." With a last push, I fell to the ground of my room as I saw the door closed with a click sound.
And now I was here, bored and depressed thanks to him.
I still don't get how our relationship turned this way... it's not like it was my fault. I tried, I really did. But he kept on pushing me away... saying hurtful things... rejecting me to the point where I cried... I couldn't take it anymore. My heart squeezed painfully, making it harder to breathe.
I had told Yuma-nii about all of this and he listened to me... comforted me... gave me advice when I needed him. He really is a dependable brother... the one that I had always wished for.
Something wet rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away with the back of my hand. No... I couldn't cry... I tried hard not to cry for the past year or so. I wanted to be stronger... but I can't right now. My vision grew blurry as I tried to blink back the tears. My chest grew tight, thinking about nii-chan.
Yuma-nii... what's wrong with me? I d-don't know what to do anymore... I had no idea why I had a magazine open and confiding in his picture.
I quickly got off my bed and opened up my window. I didn't need the keys... I don't care if nii-chan yells at me...
I managed to climb out safely, landing on the grass with a small plop. Without looking back, I ran to Yuma-nii's house.
Author: Jen
Pairing: RyuShin (Ryutaro x Shintaro)
Genre: Fluff, Romance, & Angst
Rating: PG
Words: 1284
Summary: Ryutaro hits puberty and realizes that his affection for his younger brother isn't so brotherly.
Notes: Oops, forgot the change the note last time. LOL
Don't worry everyone~ As long as I have a fic posted, you'll know I'm still alive. xD RL has caught up to meh~ xD And it will continue until meh last day of school which ish June 24th~ xD
Comments are really appreciated! xD
Previous: Chappy 1, Chappy 1.5, Chappy 2
Ryutaro's POV
14 years old going on 15. Still in puberty. Having way more fun. Endless hormones, even more emo-ing, and knowing too much about... stuff. About my own little brother.
Who now thinks I'm annoying and possibly hates me. How that ended up happening... well it's thanks to me. I pushed him away for his own good. Really, I did. For both our sake's.
I had originally planned to ignore him completely but somehow I had found myself following wherever he went. Like... for instance, whenever he wanted to go out and play, I had to be there with him. Plus my parents would think I'm one awesome, caring brother who looks after his little brother. I like to think I'm awesome....
Anyways, I had debuted with Hey! Say! JUMP two years ago, while Shintaro was still with the juniors. And I had noticed he was getting closer to one particular junior, Nakayama Yuma. Coincidentally, they were in a drama together as siblings: Battery. Even though it's been such a long time since I saw that drama, somehow I could only remember that one particular scene... where Shintaro was crying... and then he had to just hug him for who knows how long... half dressed! I remember wanting to throw my drink at the screen when I saw that part. Only I could do that.
Wow... I sound really possessive. But I swear, I'm not the slightest bit jealous. And I'm not in denial, okay?
By the way, I am so not pissed off about that bastard pinning Shintaro down on the bed and almost biting his neck in a really wrong position. Though I don't really want to admit that I had wanted to be in that guy's position... I shouldn't be thinking about stuff like that right now.
Our parents left to have their honeymoon trip, leaving us both alone with a new babysitter. Too bad, this babysitter was exactly like the other one except more experienced with it. Not like I cared. Well... sort of. It's a bad thing because... I'm alone with Shintaro and then too many thoughts go through my head.
Shintaro came out of his room, all dressed up with a small bag over his shoulder.
"Where are you going?" I asked. Shintaro didn't have school nor practice. He finished filming for the Snow Prince movie. What else was there?
"I'm going to Yuma-nii's house," he answered while grabbing the keys from the drawer.
My demeanor instantly grew hard as I stepped right in front of him and snatched the keys away. Since when did Shintaro call him by his first name and even added the older brother honorific? Now that I thought about it... Shintaro had said he wanted Nakayama as his brother before. My fingers curled up into a fist, remembering.
"What was that for?!" Shintaro exclaimed, his eyes glaring at me.
I bit my bottom lip, seeing Shintaro's defiance for the first time with that annoyed, frustrated expression. If anyone should be annoyed or frustrated, it should be me! "You can't go!" I yelled at him without meaning to. I let my emotions take hold of me.
"Why not?!" Shintaro protested, eyes flaring.
"Because I say so!" I lamely told him, taking the keys and stuffing them in my pockets. Then I proceeded in pushing Shintaro to his room. "Now be a good little brother and stay in there until it's dinner time."
Shintaro had struggled along the way but obviously I was stronger. "I want to go!"
"Shut up. You're being noisy and annoying," I growled at him before effectively shoving him in and locking the door.
I sighed, trying to calm myself down. Maybe I should take anger management classes... but how could I help it? I couldn't stand knowing that Shintaro was getting chummy with Nakayama. I guess, what I feared the most was Shintaro... falling for Nakayama. I know, I couldn't be any lamer. Locking my own brother in his room. That was a bit out of hand...
I messed up my own hair out of irritation, going to my bedroom. I"ll apologize later and unlock the door soon after this heavy feeling in my heart goes away...
~~~
Shintaro's POV
12 years old. And my current state: Emo-ing in my room. More like, I can't get out since my stupid brother locked me in here. He's always so unfair! I let out a noise of frustration and laid on my bed, staring up at the ceiling as the events replayed in my head.
"Where are you going?" Nii-chan seemed worried about where I was going to be.
"I'm going to Yuma-nii's house." Not like I wanted to stay in the house with nii-chan all day. It was boring without someone to play with. Plus Yuma-nii is really fun! We've been in two dramas together and are really close! Most of the time, I wished that he was my brother instead of nii-chan. Yuma-nii is more like the old nii-chan... but that nii-chan is gone now...
When Ryutaro jerked the keys out of my hands unexpectedly, I cried out, "What was that for?!" This had never happened before. Usually, I can go out with my friends but this time... he won't let me... why? And even if I could, he would still follow!
"You can't go!" Ryutaro insisted with a loud voice. The loudness rang in my ears. He's so scary when he's mad at me... though I'm not sure why he's mad at me. What did I do wrong? I could think of nothing. Nothing!
"Why not?!" I retorted, wondering why he was being so unreasonable. I glowered at him, too.
"Because I say so!" he replied before making me go to my room along with keeping the keys. "Now be a good little brother and stay in there until it's dinner time." Dinner time? But what about lunch? How does that make sense?
"I want to go!" I wailed, flailing my arms about but it was of no use. Nii-chan was just too strong... and so stubborn. It's practically impossible to change his mind once he had made it up.
"Shut up. You're being noisy and annoying." With a last push, I fell to the ground of my room as I saw the door closed with a click sound.
And now I was here, bored and depressed thanks to him.
I still don't get how our relationship turned this way... it's not like it was my fault. I tried, I really did. But he kept on pushing me away... saying hurtful things... rejecting me to the point where I cried... I couldn't take it anymore. My heart squeezed painfully, making it harder to breathe.
I had told Yuma-nii about all of this and he listened to me... comforted me... gave me advice when I needed him. He really is a dependable brother... the one that I had always wished for.
Something wet rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away with the back of my hand. No... I couldn't cry... I tried hard not to cry for the past year or so. I wanted to be stronger... but I can't right now. My vision grew blurry as I tried to blink back the tears. My chest grew tight, thinking about nii-chan.
Yuma-nii... what's wrong with me? I d-don't know what to do anymore... I had no idea why I had a magazine open and confiding in his picture.
I quickly got off my bed and opened up my window. I didn't need the keys... I don't care if nii-chan yells at me...
I managed to climb out safely, landing on the grass with a small plop. Without looking back, I ran to Yuma-nii's house.