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so, i think devin is on the verge of hating me. i dont think well ever stop talking and being civil so im not too worried about. but i dont know if its that calvin and i are seemingly working out that im not that concerned. i stayed the night at his house last night. i think ill stay there again tonight. i hoping we can get this to work. but if not im okay as being "the girl that keeps him company" if hes going to change his mind about us really dating. but i am worried about devin still. he said hes trying not to just drop me and never talk to me again. he said he wants me to talk to him and make him feel like it will be okay, more expects it out of me than anything. life, sooner or later i was going to fuck it up. but i dont think i have just yet.