Self-Indulgent Ranting, feel free to scroll past
This is going to be a bitchy self-indulgent rant, so feel free to scroll past it and return to your regularly scheduled friends-page entries.
I'm getting more and more annoyed with the difficulties I have comunicating with verbal/sequential thinkers in my life. I know it's nobody's fault but my own that I refuse to work on "bettering" myself by forcing my brain to work in a move verbally based manner, but I really don't want to change the way I think. I tried that when I was a kid, back when my family found a way to "fix" me", and thought I was going.
Everything is connected in my head. Pictures to represent different parts of my mind. Movies of events in the stories that live in my head. Plans for future projects and ideas. Everything has connections and pictures and when I'm in my own head or reading a book where I can see somebody elses mental pictures it feels like the best thing in the world.
Then there are days like today. When everybody want's to talk to me. Expects me to reply in kind and all I want to is rip my hair out and scream at them to just stop talking; stop making noise. I can't handle having to translate what their saying into pictures and then translate my pictured replies into words. It just turns into a huge mixed up mess in my head, but if I don't feel up to talking I'm being unfair because their taking the initiative to try and explain things to me and I'm not being grateful enough.
It only makes it worse that I've been tapped out of story pictures for the last few weeks.I can feel all these pictures just pushing against the back of my brain, but I can't get a clear enough view of them to start translating the mental picures into something concrete; and then to translate those concrete ideas into something that can exist independantly of the mental web of pictures that exists inside of my head; contecting ideas and thoughts and sub-thoughts and meanings until they create a whole web of feelings and events.
So now for the questions I wanted to ask anybody that is interested in answering. What all my ranting has been leading up to:
Do you think in Pictures?
And if you do, do you have any suggestions for how to communicate your mental pictures in a way that other people can understand? A way to that doesn't require the people your communicating with to have the same mental connections, or ability to picture things, that you have?
How do you put up with days where it feels like it takes all of your concentration to translate your thoughts into words, and your really, really don't feel up to talking?
Thanks for putting up with my ranting!
Chibi
I'm getting more and more annoyed with the difficulties I have comunicating with verbal/sequential thinkers in my life. I know it's nobody's fault but my own that I refuse to work on "bettering" myself by forcing my brain to work in a move verbally based manner, but I really don't want to change the way I think. I tried that when I was a kid, back when my family found a way to "fix" me", and thought I was going.
Everything is connected in my head. Pictures to represent different parts of my mind. Movies of events in the stories that live in my head. Plans for future projects and ideas. Everything has connections and pictures and when I'm in my own head or reading a book where I can see somebody elses mental pictures it feels like the best thing in the world.
Then there are days like today. When everybody want's to talk to me. Expects me to reply in kind and all I want to is rip my hair out and scream at them to just stop talking; stop making noise. I can't handle having to translate what their saying into pictures and then translate my pictured replies into words. It just turns into a huge mixed up mess in my head, but if I don't feel up to talking I'm being unfair because their taking the initiative to try and explain things to me and I'm not being grateful enough.
It only makes it worse that I've been tapped out of story pictures for the last few weeks.I can feel all these pictures just pushing against the back of my brain, but I can't get a clear enough view of them to start translating the mental picures into something concrete; and then to translate those concrete ideas into something that can exist independantly of the mental web of pictures that exists inside of my head; contecting ideas and thoughts and sub-thoughts and meanings until they create a whole web of feelings and events.
So now for the questions I wanted to ask anybody that is interested in answering. What all my ranting has been leading up to:
Do you think in Pictures?
And if you do, do you have any suggestions for how to communicate your mental pictures in a way that other people can understand? A way to that doesn't require the people your communicating with to have the same mental connections, or ability to picture things, that you have?
How do you put up with days where it feels like it takes all of your concentration to translate your thoughts into words, and your really, really don't feel up to talking?
Thanks for putting up with my ranting!
Chibi