Xmas Blues? Maybe?
Saa...
I'm not sure if it's the PMS or just what exactly it is...but I'm kinda just feeling down this week.
Maybe it's working the 40 hours straight. I have never worked on my birthday before...but I'm scheduled to work 8:30am to 5:30 pm of Xmas Eve. I asked off....was denied (Even though there are about 6 other people who got the day off...even though I was told it was a 'black out day'...meaning NO ONE can request off). Hell I then asked for a morning shift...was told 'no problem'. The morning shify was giving to some chick who HAD to go to her church thing at 7pm!!! OMG! I guess I'm a bit bitter for no reason. It's rather silly to be bitter. Oh well. I need the money...and I don't think I have any birthday plans anyway. Well...except watch the Nightmore Before Christmas...as I always do on my birthday.
I'll be turning 24 in a matter of days. Saa...
It seems I 'butt in' too much with my friends. Perhaps my concern for them seems like 'butting in' and they find it annoying. I do worryabout them in a big sister type way....but I guess it's not seen as such. Oh well. I shall do my best to stop being annoying.
I talked to Shilo for a few hours the other night. It was enlightening. I feel better about a few things. Also they have good Chai Tea at her work. I will visit again when I can afford it. I think it's nice to have someone to talk to. Not that I don't here at home....but I dunno...maybe it's because of the age and maybe life experiences? And I hope it helps her talking to me. Sometimes you just need someone to vent to and just listen.
Jeremy was gone yesterday and today. I was hoping he would be home when I got home...but sadly he was not. It's funny...I'm perfectly ok haveing to go somewhere for a few days...or hell...have him gone a whole year in another country...and be fine. But sleeping at night alone feels weird. It felt empty.
So yeah...feeling kinda blue. Most likely PMS...who knows. But I think things will be alright in the end ..just gotta give it a few days! And I do like Christmas....
I'm not sure if it's the PMS or just what exactly it is...but I'm kinda just feeling down this week.
Maybe it's working the 40 hours straight. I have never worked on my birthday before...but I'm scheduled to work 8:30am to 5:30 pm of Xmas Eve. I asked off....was denied (Even though there are about 6 other people who got the day off...even though I was told it was a 'black out day'...meaning NO ONE can request off). Hell I then asked for a morning shift...was told 'no problem'. The morning shify was giving to some chick who HAD to go to her church thing at 7pm!!! OMG! I guess I'm a bit bitter for no reason. It's rather silly to be bitter. Oh well. I need the money...and I don't think I have any birthday plans anyway. Well...except watch the Nightmore Before Christmas...as I always do on my birthday.
I'll be turning 24 in a matter of days. Saa...
It seems I 'butt in' too much with my friends. Perhaps my concern for them seems like 'butting in' and they find it annoying. I do worryabout them in a big sister type way....but I guess it's not seen as such. Oh well. I shall do my best to stop being annoying.
I talked to Shilo for a few hours the other night. It was enlightening. I feel better about a few things. Also they have good Chai Tea at her work. I will visit again when I can afford it. I think it's nice to have someone to talk to. Not that I don't here at home....but I dunno...maybe it's because of the age and maybe life experiences? And I hope it helps her talking to me. Sometimes you just need someone to vent to and just listen.
Jeremy was gone yesterday and today. I was hoping he would be home when I got home...but sadly he was not. It's funny...I'm perfectly ok haveing to go somewhere for a few days...or hell...have him gone a whole year in another country...and be fine. But sleeping at night alone feels weird. It felt empty.
So yeah...feeling kinda blue. Most likely PMS...who knows. But I think things will be alright in the end ..just gotta give it a few days! And I do like Christmas....