Blue Saturday (July 17, 2010)
Sorry, just have to let it out...
Waking up and receiving a mail containing Jin’s leaving matter from my panicked best friend was not a good way to start a day. Worse, I couldn’t access the internet right at that moment. That time I felt.. nothing. Maybe my brain hadn’t functioning well. I just replied her mail with : “Oh, it didn’t surprise me”. Her answer: “Is that really you??” because I myself who told her over and over how Jin is worth the love too like the other 5. She’s a new KAT-TUN’s fangirl and at first she didn’t like Jin. She wrote ‘KaT-TUN’ everytime we fangirl about them. “Please type the A with CAPS LOCK! xD”, was my reaction. And after a while finally she wrote it.. “I LOVE KAT-TUN”. I couldn’t be happier that day.
I didn’t know what devil’s whisper I got that day. I mailed her, “sorry for making you wrote with big A”. But she told me she wasn’t regretting it and that she’ll always support the six of them because she loved them, equally, very much. She told me “I can see Jin is indeed prefers to do solo works”. Maybe I know, but I just want to close my eyes and never want to see it.
After playing KAT-TUN’s song all day, while listening to A Page, I noticed:
“So forgive and let's live this life that I missed
.
.
So I ask will you bless me please
Expanding my territories”
Is that what you really want Jin? Is that what you want to tell us all this time?
.
.
.
After all the shock and stupid thoughts and words I said, in the end, I just can wish all the best for them.
so my 3 days summary is: numb> angry&sad;emotional > tired > thinking over > calming down
Waking up and receiving a mail containing Jin’s leaving matter from my panicked best friend was not a good way to start a day. Worse, I couldn’t access the internet right at that moment. That time I felt.. nothing. Maybe my brain hadn’t functioning well. I just replied her mail with : “Oh, it didn’t surprise me”. Her answer: “Is that really you??” because I myself who told her over and over how Jin is worth the love too like the other 5. She’s a new KAT-TUN’s fangirl and at first she didn’t like Jin. She wrote ‘KaT-TUN’ everytime we fangirl about them. “Please type the A with CAPS LOCK! xD”, was my reaction. And after a while finally she wrote it.. “I LOVE KAT-TUN”. I couldn’t be happier that day.
I didn’t know what devil’s whisper I got that day. I mailed her, “sorry for making you wrote with big A”. But she told me she wasn’t regretting it and that she’ll always support the six of them because she loved them, equally, very much. She told me “I can see Jin is indeed prefers to do solo works”. Maybe I know, but I just want to close my eyes and never want to see it.
After playing KAT-TUN’s song all day, while listening to A Page, I noticed:
“So forgive and let's live this life that I missed
.
.
So I ask will you bless me please
Expanding my territories”
Is that what you really want Jin? Is that what you want to tell us all this time?
.
.
.
After all the shock and stupid thoughts and words I said, in the end, I just can wish all the best for them.
so my 3 days summary is: numb> angry&sad;emotional > tired > thinking over > calming down