Feelings Dump
Actually, I'm too tired to do this properly. Um...wah wah wah I'm tired? lol no
...um...
...aw fuck it...
I can not stop vacillating between being super excited about my new path in life and then wondering if I did indeed make a huge mistake. There is no middle ground only blinding optimism and crushing self doubt. It is like a ride. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm more or less on top of my studies I think maybe I can't tell I feel like I know so much yet nothing at all and it's strange. I am also really tired. I was wondering if I should talk to my boss about cutting my hours even more. Maybe just taking out the early morning shifts. I seem to be able to handle late finishes better than early mornings. Then I looked at my payslip and realised I can't really afford to lose and hours. If anything I should be asking for more but that's probably not a good idea.
We all know that I am not overly fond of myself, yes? I don't need to go into that do I? No? Good.
I was keeping a lid on it all very nicely until I saw a decapitated possum on our front drive this morning. Stupid cats. I don't dead things. Just putting it out there.
Um...I'm going to get ready for bed now because tired.
...um...
...aw fuck it...
I can not stop vacillating between being super excited about my new path in life and then wondering if I did indeed make a huge mistake. There is no middle ground only blinding optimism and crushing self doubt. It is like a ride. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm more or less on top of my studies I think maybe I can't tell I feel like I know so much yet nothing at all and it's strange. I am also really tired. I was wondering if I should talk to my boss about cutting my hours even more. Maybe just taking out the early morning shifts. I seem to be able to handle late finishes better than early mornings. Then I looked at my payslip and realised I can't really afford to lose and hours. If anything I should be asking for more but that's probably not a good idea.
We all know that I am not overly fond of myself, yes? I don't need to go into that do I? No? Good.
I was keeping a lid on it all very nicely until I saw a decapitated possum on our front drive this morning. Stupid cats. I don't dead things. Just putting it out there.
Um...I'm going to get ready for bed now because tired.