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this day is going by so so so so so so so slow.
its one of those days when you look at the clock, wait like 15 minutes and then look at the clock again and it seriously hasnt moved. at. all.
AAUUUUUUUUUUUUGH.
im at work and theres nothing for me to do. yesterday they had me actually signing patients in and everything which wasnt bad at all. I have to admit, the training left me feeling extremely overwhelmed so i was very nervous to come in and work. it went well though.
but today for some reason, i just got to watch what other people are doing. all day. watching. i took an early lunch so thats making it even worse.
i have many thoughts about this job right now but im not going to get into it while i am on a work computer lol.
i am going to be applying soon to be a substitute teacher (as soon as my offcial transcript comes in and i get the 100 dollars for the application fee) so i hope that all works out.
i was on sites the other day looking for jobs again but honestly, its the same crap you find over and over on those sites.
according to those sites now an administrative assistant now qualifies as a marketing position. yeah. no. UGH.
my saving thought right now is that kyle is looking pretty good to getting a job in new york. apparently joni wasnt receiving the messages the doctor was sending her but he wanted to interview kyle like 2 weeks ago. But they worked it out so that he will have an interview while he is in CT for christmas. The guy said that he wanted to meet me too because he thinks he could get me a job and NYU (hes got ins there or something) idk as long as im getting more than 22K a year... honestly thats like 1% away from poverty line.
I just dont like getting my hopes up though or really thinking about it because there have been so many like "o this person in such and such state is interested" or even when we decided to move to cali, that just fell through due to how horrible the guy was.
but kyle is so ready to move on and we would take that offer in a heartbeat. things with covance havent been working out very well. i usually never see kyle get frustrated with anything but yesterday he said that if he had an offer to take a job at mcdonalds over covance, he would. he cant start looking for another job though until he knows whats going on about NY.
sad thing is, like ive stated so many times before, i wouldnt feel really bad leaving here anymore. i dont think ive gone out since halloween honestly. and the last time i was invited to go somewhere was rylans bday party which was over a month ago.
i was going to go out with ashley this last weekend but after looking over expenses...i couldnt even afford to drive down there and i was pretty mad about that.
but really, besides my parents, i dont see anyone so yeah. meh.
i think kyle and i are just ready for a clean start.
or A start of some kind.
we could get a puppy then if we moved :)
so yeah, if you havent really figured it out, i dont plan on staying at this job too long. i hate changing jobs all the time though it honestly sucks.
but the person i replaced here apparently was like the most beloved person that ever graced this building so i feel like im not too welcome or that i have to live up to something. they seriously have a cardboard cut out of this lady in the lobby. its constantly looking at me...
but also, i thought that there were more younger people here and its not. not at all. i feel old working here. i feel bored.
im tired of doing things i dont give 2 shits about lol.
im frustrated that i am this well, frustrated with this job already. i know i havent really been here that long especially with the training but its difficult to see myself really enjoying work.
it wont be BAD but i wont enjoy it how i should.
im sorry ive had so many of these entries lately but this has what has been on my mind the last couple of months.
on the other hand, i think im going to quit wow. but i dont think i can lol.
i canceled my account the other day just because well, as sad as it is, i feel how i feel in real life with WoW (dont know if that made any sense)
theres all these people on there that i never talk to anymore or when i try to talk to them its just awkward or not even a real conversation. it makes me sad being on there constantly questing alone.
but it really is the only source of entertainment i have. but i am going to quit for this week and see how i can handle it. ill just get other things done that need to be done i guess.
on another topic, i want to loose 3 pounds before christmas. kyle has lost like 8 or 11 pounds so far! hes sticks to working out all the time though and i dont :( owell.
i think 3 pounds is doable.
tonight im making christmas cookies with kyle, working out, and then watching the office.
this weekend my parents are coming up saturday night for our own personal christmas get together thingy.
im actually very much looking foward to it.