This might just be me saying. Have you ever tried to be friends with someone and feel like your efforts are completely wasted? I bet it's just a matter of being 'too sensitive' over the idea. Wasn't it supposed to be 'give a little, get a little'?
On a brighter note, there seems to be a lot to do in the upcoming dayshift for
damned. I hope that I can keep up, since this will be rather important meetings for one of my characters. It will hopefully build up some relationships outside of his fandom... well, fighter-types at least. Things had better go well anyway!
Hopefully the post-poned convention will be announced soon. I would be mad if it was called off completely, since it will be my first anime convention. Maybe I jinxed it. XD It sounds fairly positive that something has been worked out, but this waiting game is painful (I also happen to be waiting for my course list from the university, but that is bound to scare my pants off).
PS - Gackt... get out of my fandom.