Since I left home in 2007...
Gaaa~h!
So long since I had posted anything here...I have become so lazy in this, haha~
Anyway, eveyrthing going fine, can't waittttttttt to go to OKINAWA~~ I am so lucky to be able to go there, it seems so nice...yee~ah~
So, just what I have been doing is basically looking for jobs and such in order to survive. Tokyo IS expensive, so I try to save money on stuff, when I can. Summer semester going well, just a little annoying sometimes, since classes are long..it's fine though, I can deal with it. (of course I can!I must! haha~)
Well, I had just been talking with my mom the other day, since I just recently called her for her birthday...we were talking about my future life plans and such...well, basically since Rutgers screwed me over, going to back to the states soon is kinda outta the question at this point..I still am not sure what I wanna do, and just coming to Japan has somehow clarified AND confused me more about myself, my goals and such. Especially, I realized I am not so young right now. I mean, I AM young to what I consider. I consider youth as a "State of Mind". But, what I mean is, I am not a child anymore. And my decisions and my way of doing things is not so "casual" or "light" anymore. I basically do things that impact my life heavily at this point. Like coming to Japan. I made that decision on my own basically, and I told my parents about it. And I think it was a pretty big decision.
And just in general, I realize now, living on my own here in Japan teaches me many things about myself.
For example, I used to be more antisocial or cold or something, but here I realized I have become more of a warm, friendly type. I dunno why. And also, I realize I am kind of naive in a bimbo way sometimes. (>_<)
Anywho, I did think a lot about my future. I plan honestly in staying here past 2010. I dunno how much longer though. If it's up to me, I don't care how long I stay. I like Japan. It's a good life I think, even if I'm poor. lol.
It depends on basically, my social situation I think. If I feel good being here, and if the relationships I have in Japan work out good. I mean, if I just end up a lonely lonely person or something, I might get the urge to go back. But then again, go back WHERE? I am not American, so I guess I can go back to Peru..? Peru is nice but I dunno if wanna go live there in just 2 years or such. So, I kinda am stationed in Japan..I think...
And also, I wonder what will happen in 2010 for me. I will be 23...not a teenager anymore. Will I be more serious about things? I dunno. It seems strange, suddenly I feel old..22!!
As far music, I recently have been listening a lot to this song by SHOCKING BLUE: "Daemon Lover". I have always liked this song, but now it's on replay on my iPOD. lol
(PS: I dunno why the video is in Japan (o_O)..
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