Aug 17, 2009 14:11
Yesterday was a fabulous day. Two of my best friends got married in a beautiful ceremony, the sun was shining even though weather forecasts predicted rain, and my best friend and I are no longer in a fight. To make matters even better, the texts I sent her didn't all go through so I didn't send an unintentional semi-confection after all. Its a great relief. I think for the two of us its better if we just remain friends.
All day yesterday my stomach felt warm (and not just from the spiced rum) I love weddings, they always make me happy. Two people deeply in love joining together, committing to each other. Its a beautiful thing. I couldn't stop thinking about what sort of wedding I might one day have. True, the way it looks right now I wont technically be able to get married, but that doesn't upset me.
Laws cannot stop me from having a ceremony in celebration of finding the person I want to spend my life with. I don't care all that much that I'm not legally able to 'marry' another woman. The important thing is the two of us will know what we share, and our loved ones will support us. I would like the right to marry, don't get me wrong, but I'd be happy with a civil union too. I just hope civil unions will become as good as marriages some day soon. When civil unions start to have the same rights, when a man can legally visit his partner in the hospital, when a woman can mark on her taxes that shes bound to another woman (instead of fretting over whether to mark married or single), when a same-sex couple can have the same financial benefits as a married couple- then I will be happy! I think that is all any of us really want. Recognition that our needs are the same. If the government would just do that then they wouldn't have to debate about the same-sex marriage issue! Just give us our rights!
But how great it would be to hold my (hypothetical) partners hands and gaze into her eyes as I promise myself to her, promise that she will own my soul for all eternity. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I want a love like that so badly. And now my brother is engaged ^^. I'm close to his fiance so I'm helping her plan everything. It feels great. I love thinking about the flower arrangements and center pieces and the the cake. I'm helping her with the colors and dress design, and invitations... and I think a lot of people go too far with weddings, forgetting that the important thing is the love the couple shares. I know that I won't forget it along the way because that's my motivation. I want this day to be special for the both of them, something they can remember as being the most beautiful day of their lives, the day the swore themselves to one another.
God, I'm such a romantic. Lol.
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