it's been a while, huh?
HEY! yeah, I can't believe my last entry was in September. Well, actually, I made an entry last month, but it was too depressing, I pulled it down after a few hours. Re-reading that last entry, I still feel the same way. so I guess I'll just paraphrase.
happy 2012. i feel so old. why does it seem like the past years were better? Probably because I was younger, and I still felt I had the potential to do anything.
...but I really shouldn't complain, as I do have it better than many in this economy.
Questions of the day/year:
Why is it so hard to change something even when you know it needs to be changed?
Happiness is not a zero-sum game. I am responsible for my own happiness. I control my perspective that generates/perceives my happiness. And yet, why am I not happy? Do I (sub) consciously choose not to be?
All in all, 2011 was kind of a shitty year, personally. Actually, so was 2010. I've made some terrible choices, hurt people with my distance and avoidance (though both for my sake and theirs), and have not made much progress in my career or other aspects of my life. And unfortunately, much of this will inevitably spill into 2012. Unless I do something drastic.
Not sure if I should take the plunge. Though sometimes, I do wish I could just disappear and be done with this theatrical show instead.
As for my wishes to everyone else, happy 2012. I sincerely hope your year turns out memorable and wonderful.
happy 2012. i feel so old. why does it seem like the past years were better? Probably because I was younger, and I still felt I had the potential to do anything.
...but I really shouldn't complain, as I do have it better than many in this economy.
Questions of the day/year:
Why is it so hard to change something even when you know it needs to be changed?
Happiness is not a zero-sum game. I am responsible for my own happiness. I control my perspective that generates/perceives my happiness. And yet, why am I not happy? Do I (sub) consciously choose not to be?
All in all, 2011 was kind of a shitty year, personally. Actually, so was 2010. I've made some terrible choices, hurt people with my distance and avoidance (though both for my sake and theirs), and have not made much progress in my career or other aspects of my life. And unfortunately, much of this will inevitably spill into 2012. Unless I do something drastic.
Not sure if I should take the plunge. Though sometimes, I do wish I could just disappear and be done with this theatrical show instead.
As for my wishes to everyone else, happy 2012. I sincerely hope your year turns out memorable and wonderful.