I Like Long Entries....
So yeah, I'm doin' well at writting up long entries, even though i'm not all depressed or at a zero state (okay, so I maybe kinda at zero state, but not really, if that makes any sense).
I worked today for the first time since my first week of training on a week day with Day Staff. And I must say that it was an adjustment to being the only support staff there. I was sitting lopsided by 5 because of all the encounters I had in my backpocket.
Today for a theraputic activity they watched something a day staff had taped of TV. It was some documentry on a guy named Shannon who was the lead singer of some band (they're a one hit wonder kinda band) who over dosed in 95 and killed himself. But it talked about his life and everything leading up to his death. Quite powerful in my opinion. I think Matt (day staff dude) was trying to get them to see and understand that when you do drugs, and you get addicted to them, it rules your life and you hurt so many people around you. And what you do really does have an effect on a lot of people. And I sat there watching this thinking to myself "thank god no one close to me lives this kind of life" I seriously don't understand how and why people get involved in such a horrible lifestyle.
Afterwards they had a chance to talk about what they'd seen. ANd here I go being all "spiritual/religous" (you have been forewarned). And a resident raises his hand and said "I'm so lucky to be here and being given a chance to turn my life around and to be able to look back and see how bad things are. I OD-ed twice, and everytime I was high, but sick and suffereing I'd look up and say, 'Please god, let me live thorugh this and I promise i'll never do drugs again' but the second i'm sober I foreget about everything I said the night before and it'd all repeat itself" And for me, that made me look at my own life and how I've said the same thing (but in a different scenario), and I end up doing the same thing over again. It goes to show me how much my Heavenly Father actually cares about me and how forgiving he really is. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling inside (and a "wow, i'm gulity" feeling as well).
I am seriously going to miss this job. I've learned so much about myself here, and i've seen so much go on, I'm gonna miss my kids. But on the flip side, it'll be nice to have normal kids and not crazy ones! (although, I'm sure I'll get the occasional crazy kid like we did last year).
In other news. Little Teagan has been sick! He spent Easter Night in primary childrens hospital's ER. I guess he has a virus that makes him throw up every little thing he eats. But I guess he's doing better today, however Danielle (his mom) is now sick. Which stinks for them. I wanted to stop by yesterday or today, but since their all sick, they wouldn't let me b/c they didn't want to get me sick. So I have to wait til next week.
Anyway, i'm going now. Ta Ta until next time.
I worked today for the first time since my first week of training on a week day with Day Staff. And I must say that it was an adjustment to being the only support staff there. I was sitting lopsided by 5 because of all the encounters I had in my backpocket.
Today for a theraputic activity they watched something a day staff had taped of TV. It was some documentry on a guy named Shannon who was the lead singer of some band (they're a one hit wonder kinda band) who over dosed in 95 and killed himself. But it talked about his life and everything leading up to his death. Quite powerful in my opinion. I think Matt (day staff dude) was trying to get them to see and understand that when you do drugs, and you get addicted to them, it rules your life and you hurt so many people around you. And what you do really does have an effect on a lot of people. And I sat there watching this thinking to myself "thank god no one close to me lives this kind of life" I seriously don't understand how and why people get involved in such a horrible lifestyle.
Afterwards they had a chance to talk about what they'd seen. ANd here I go being all "spiritual/religous" (you have been forewarned). And a resident raises his hand and said "I'm so lucky to be here and being given a chance to turn my life around and to be able to look back and see how bad things are. I OD-ed twice, and everytime I was high, but sick and suffereing I'd look up and say, 'Please god, let me live thorugh this and I promise i'll never do drugs again' but the second i'm sober I foreget about everything I said the night before and it'd all repeat itself" And for me, that made me look at my own life and how I've said the same thing (but in a different scenario), and I end up doing the same thing over again. It goes to show me how much my Heavenly Father actually cares about me and how forgiving he really is. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling inside (and a "wow, i'm gulity" feeling as well).
I am seriously going to miss this job. I've learned so much about myself here, and i've seen so much go on, I'm gonna miss my kids. But on the flip side, it'll be nice to have normal kids and not crazy ones! (although, I'm sure I'll get the occasional crazy kid like we did last year).
In other news. Little Teagan has been sick! He spent Easter Night in primary childrens hospital's ER. I guess he has a virus that makes him throw up every little thing he eats. But I guess he's doing better today, however Danielle (his mom) is now sick. Which stinks for them. I wanted to stop by yesterday or today, but since their all sick, they wouldn't let me b/c they didn't want to get me sick. So I have to wait til next week.
Anyway, i'm going now. Ta Ta until next time.