Missive #3
I got a second job. I'm a host at a small restaurant in
Gruene. As in three doors down from Gruene Hall. Envy me.
There is a certain moment of aprehension that arrives whenever I come close to conversing with a female I don't know. I thought that was a junior high thing. But I guess not. 'Tis half the battle, n'est-ce pas?
I find myself in the most embarrassing of situations. Embarrassing only to me, I suppose.
Scene: Public setting, today: Starbuck's. Attractive girls enter. Sit down. David notices, and sits more upright. (Ya know, keep the gut under the beltline.) They also notice David. (OMGsh) Enter: Two high school-looking guys. David then feels a pang of insecurity. Character has a tendency to compare himself to others, as a female would. "Am I more/less _____ than that guy?"
I wish I didn't act like such a fourteen year old girl.
I've managed to make myself read lately. I like it. As previously stated, I've been reading Henry Miller. This was, for lack of better words, inspiring.
One of the first things you have to recognize, if you are a serious artist, is that art has no rules. Everything else under the sun has, but not art. With art you are free, provided you follow the bidding of your heart and not your mind. (Do you know anything about the Dadaist movement? It was something. Unfortunately it didn't take with the public. It had to do with "clowns and angels," idiots, traitors, scoundrels. It was like becoming a child again, but an unruly one......Brenda, literature is like music, painting, or any other art. You have to be yourself all the time. That won't mean early profits. On the contrary, you will find all the snares and traps that you have in T.V. With everything, whether art, love, or what not, the element of chance plays a certain role, a rather big one, I would say. Learn to clutivate chance, to spot it at a glance. Don't besiege your astrologer. Get to know your own heart and mind. Follow your instincts. And remember (I'm sure you do!) that success demands sacrifices. Success, though to seems like the goal, is your greatest enemy. I would say, "Don't try to be Number 1, just be whatever you are. Be it fully and constantly."
There is a certain moment of aprehension that arrives whenever I come close to conversing with a female I don't know. I thought that was a junior high thing. But I guess not. 'Tis half the battle, n'est-ce pas?
I find myself in the most embarrassing of situations. Embarrassing only to me, I suppose.
Scene: Public setting, today: Starbuck's. Attractive girls enter. Sit down. David notices, and sits more upright. (Ya know, keep the gut under the beltline.) They also notice David. (OMGsh) Enter: Two high school-looking guys. David then feels a pang of insecurity. Character has a tendency to compare himself to others, as a female would. "Am I more/less _____ than that guy?"
I wish I didn't act like such a fourteen year old girl.
I've managed to make myself read lately. I like it. As previously stated, I've been reading Henry Miller. This was, for lack of better words, inspiring.
One of the first things you have to recognize, if you are a serious artist, is that art has no rules. Everything else under the sun has, but not art. With art you are free, provided you follow the bidding of your heart and not your mind. (Do you know anything about the Dadaist movement? It was something. Unfortunately it didn't take with the public. It had to do with "clowns and angels," idiots, traitors, scoundrels. It was like becoming a child again, but an unruly one......Brenda, literature is like music, painting, or any other art. You have to be yourself all the time. That won't mean early profits. On the contrary, you will find all the snares and traps that you have in T.V. With everything, whether art, love, or what not, the element of chance plays a certain role, a rather big one, I would say. Learn to clutivate chance, to spot it at a glance. Don't besiege your astrologer. Get to know your own heart and mind. Follow your instincts. And remember (I'm sure you do!) that success demands sacrifices. Success, though to seems like the goal, is your greatest enemy. I would say, "Don't try to be Number 1, just be whatever you are. Be it fully and constantly."