21...The new 15
I just turned 21 years and as I looked out my window I started to realizing that I'm old. I know many of you out there would say that I'm not old and that maybe there is some type of unbalanced hormones going on in me. Maybe being old is only mind over matter. But who is to say what is real in numbers or age in this matter. Maybe 21 is the new 15 in my life and that is why it feels like I am old.
People make a big fuss about being 21 and I wounder what is the big deal? Maybe they are trying to hide the fact that they are OLD(lol). It's not that bad just that when I was 15 I had all these new developed body parts I was excited to have. Everything was new and the guys used to thinking so too. There was alot of new things I had to learn about me and let me inform you that I wasn't the only one that wanted to learn from me too. It was amazing when I didn't have to pull the stool to wash the dishes or how I didn't have to turn my head up every time I got scold by my mom. How cloths just would fit perfectly on my body and gave it a nice sensual fit. Yes, 15 just had this aroma of young, beautiful, new beginning (note how i said new beginning).
Maybe 15 was a balance of my hormones and I was just settling in to my new me. Had boys saying how beautiful I was in Jr. High School (pft like I believe them now) and how I had these well developed jugs(believe me they were not that big like they are now) and how I had beautiful hair (my hair is black and curly, really guys) you know all the crap little curious guys want to know in a teen girl as well. It's funny how I didn't need a guy to tell me all that but it didn't hurt to hear that from them either. Oh ya, lets not forget the spring stereo type feeling of love. I feel cheated on that one. Why is it that you feel love all the time. You wake up in the morning and you can smell love that it just takes over you all day. How are you to know what real love is at the age of 15? But yes, that was one more new thing I had to learn for myself too.
Some might say that age is just a number and life isn't realy about how old you are but what you learn. How about how they say that at 21 I'm the legal age to drink yet when your 15 its something adults do so there forth; I want to feel like an adult and if I drink I will be an adult. I bet most of the under aged teens don't have a good reason to drink but only the fact that their five sence get blurry. Some people say they don't even feel drunk but they can't keep their balance. I have heard that some people do drink wine to ease the edge of being nervous in meeting a new person in your life. That doesn't mean going out and drinking your butt out lol. I have heard as well that drinking one glass of wine everyday is healthy. But who is to know who is an alcoholic? You can be an alcoholic and never touched a alcohol beverage. I just hope I never have the need to take a glass of wine. Just because I turned 21 doesn't mean I will go out and drink because it's something that I was not permitted by the law before. Funny, maybe in a weird way that is a propaganda for alcohol. You got to love freedom of speech (God Bless America).
Being 21 may just be the new 15 for me only because the law points out as me being an adult. When I turned 15 and my parents celebrated my sweet 15 I was introduced from adolescents to a teenager. Still having boundaries like curfew and how I wasn't completely on my own legally. I had to be taken cared of still but now as I am 21 it is not an obligation legally for my parents to take care of me. I can go any where I want too and do anything I want. But I don't see things the same way now that I'm 21 compared to 15. Where is my spring and my flowers and the beauty of life? Now it is like reality was just opened to me in raw. I see things like they are and not like I want to see them. Reality is that if I want my own things i have to get money. I will have to pay bills and contribute to society. But that saying of mind over matter is it like an unbalanced hormone? I don't think so, maybe 21 is my new 15. I will be optimistic and receive my new phase in life with a new and refreshed mind. Just like when I was 15 and I realized I wasn't a little kid anymore.
Chi~
People make a big fuss about being 21 and I wounder what is the big deal? Maybe they are trying to hide the fact that they are OLD(lol). It's not that bad just that when I was 15 I had all these new developed body parts I was excited to have. Everything was new and the guys used to thinking so too. There was alot of new things I had to learn about me and let me inform you that I wasn't the only one that wanted to learn from me too. It was amazing when I didn't have to pull the stool to wash the dishes or how I didn't have to turn my head up every time I got scold by my mom. How cloths just would fit perfectly on my body and gave it a nice sensual fit. Yes, 15 just had this aroma of young, beautiful, new beginning (note how i said new beginning).
Maybe 15 was a balance of my hormones and I was just settling in to my new me. Had boys saying how beautiful I was in Jr. High School (pft like I believe them now) and how I had these well developed jugs(believe me they were not that big like they are now) and how I had beautiful hair (my hair is black and curly, really guys) you know all the crap little curious guys want to know in a teen girl as well. It's funny how I didn't need a guy to tell me all that but it didn't hurt to hear that from them either. Oh ya, lets not forget the spring stereo type feeling of love. I feel cheated on that one. Why is it that you feel love all the time. You wake up in the morning and you can smell love that it just takes over you all day. How are you to know what real love is at the age of 15? But yes, that was one more new thing I had to learn for myself too.
Some might say that age is just a number and life isn't realy about how old you are but what you learn. How about how they say that at 21 I'm the legal age to drink yet when your 15 its something adults do so there forth; I want to feel like an adult and if I drink I will be an adult. I bet most of the under aged teens don't have a good reason to drink but only the fact that their five sence get blurry. Some people say they don't even feel drunk but they can't keep their balance. I have heard that some people do drink wine to ease the edge of being nervous in meeting a new person in your life. That doesn't mean going out and drinking your butt out lol. I have heard as well that drinking one glass of wine everyday is healthy. But who is to know who is an alcoholic? You can be an alcoholic and never touched a alcohol beverage. I just hope I never have the need to take a glass of wine. Just because I turned 21 doesn't mean I will go out and drink because it's something that I was not permitted by the law before. Funny, maybe in a weird way that is a propaganda for alcohol. You got to love freedom of speech (God Bless America).
Being 21 may just be the new 15 for me only because the law points out as me being an adult. When I turned 15 and my parents celebrated my sweet 15 I was introduced from adolescents to a teenager. Still having boundaries like curfew and how I wasn't completely on my own legally. I had to be taken cared of still but now as I am 21 it is not an obligation legally for my parents to take care of me. I can go any where I want too and do anything I want. But I don't see things the same way now that I'm 21 compared to 15. Where is my spring and my flowers and the beauty of life? Now it is like reality was just opened to me in raw. I see things like they are and not like I want to see them. Reality is that if I want my own things i have to get money. I will have to pay bills and contribute to society. But that saying of mind over matter is it like an unbalanced hormone? I don't think so, maybe 21 is my new 15. I will be optimistic and receive my new phase in life with a new and refreshed mind. Just like when I was 15 and I realized I wasn't a little kid anymore.
Chi~