Mar 17, 2009 20:54
Haven't been on here much lately. Just haven't felt like even getting online much anymore. My first sonogram is tomorrow at 2:30. I am REALLY nervous, but also excited too! Adam still hasn't gotten that excited about the baby yet... I read that most men don't until you get fat and they can see the baby actually move. My mom finally confessed as to why she didn't seem too thrilled to hear about more babies in the family. She said she just has to get enough strength up to stay here to see the new babies and spend time with them before she goes... WTF does that mean!? She said she feels like she may not be here for another baby to be born and she doesn't want to miss it. OMG! We (My sisters) and I told her... well you better get the strength to stay around for us too... not just the babies! Damnit! I hate it when she talks like this... shit.
Anyways, as far as I feel... I feel like shit. I guess I am only about 6 weeks or so now, but the morning sickness has set in and I have no strength. I guess I will have to make myself feel better for Cheyenne. I need to spend as much time with her as I can before the new baby gets here. *sigh* I know it will be better for her to have a sibling, but I feel so guilty having another one when Cheyenne has always been my baby. It will be a good thing though... I just know it! She will love this baby so much as will I!
And to change the subject... we are going to a St. Patty's Day parade tomorrow in Granbury with face painting and all before my doctor appointment! It's going to be a beautiful day! I just hope I wake up refreshed and not sick! BLAH!!! Later.