clusterfuck.
i really fucking hate mse 581 labs.
so i work for 6 hours on a lab... get a D.
so i REVISE the lab. 6 more hours ... E.
this is after spending time working on it with him REVISING the entire report, according to the comments he made.
the english prof. that reads the reports: A-, A. I have no fucking clue.
So. after i start the new lab today with the group, feeling kinda irritated about the lab, (and the lab i worked on THIS week, a revision of another lab which i barely snagged a C) i feel a little better. I have a feeling, that the lab i just turned in will be bad. PROBABLY worse than before i turned it in, because honestly, I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT THE HELL THIS GUY WANTS OUT OF ME.
I look at todays lab as a new start. Its moving fine, im calming down. time to save the data in the computer. I can't even do that right, i guess, because i press the wrong fucking button on the computer. so, no data file, he gets pissed, and accuses me of just "pressing buttons without thinking". if i recall, he was there, telling me when to press the button. i accidentially had my cursor over the wrong stop button. so i don't know what i am more pissed about.
the fact that i fucked up, or the fact that i fuck up and have no clue what i am doing. I think i know, but the prof. tends to show me otherwise. IF i pass this lab, i will be happy. I can't stand the thought of having to do this again next year.
I've talked to others, and they aren't doing that badly. Others also say that the labs after this aren't that bad, either. I really really hope they are right, because right now, i am frustrated beyond frustration. I had to bite my wrist to prevent me from pacing around frantically. I feel very shitty. Thanks to my fellow classmates, for telling me to not worry about it.
as for the data, we got data from another group, and we can still do our report. thats good, i guess.
OTHER than that, today kinda sucked still. worked for 3 hours on the report due today, and skipped lunch. i haven't eaten since 7:30 this morning. and that was only swiss cake rolls.
the only good news today is that i rocked out a thermodynamics exam. i got a 13.5 out of 25. not bad when the average was a 9.6.
my neck is still swolen. hasn't gone down. right now i really wish i were sick enough not to get out of bed to take a break from everything that seems to be falling apart. oh well, you have that sometimes.
Tomorrow is a new day, and i really don't want to think about school anymore. I'm going to go home, lay down, and try to relax. I am on the verge of breaking down right now.
so i work for 6 hours on a lab... get a D.
so i REVISE the lab. 6 more hours ... E.
this is after spending time working on it with him REVISING the entire report, according to the comments he made.
the english prof. that reads the reports: A-, A. I have no fucking clue.
So. after i start the new lab today with the group, feeling kinda irritated about the lab, (and the lab i worked on THIS week, a revision of another lab which i barely snagged a C) i feel a little better. I have a feeling, that the lab i just turned in will be bad. PROBABLY worse than before i turned it in, because honestly, I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT THE HELL THIS GUY WANTS OUT OF ME.
I look at todays lab as a new start. Its moving fine, im calming down. time to save the data in the computer. I can't even do that right, i guess, because i press the wrong fucking button on the computer. so, no data file, he gets pissed, and accuses me of just "pressing buttons without thinking". if i recall, he was there, telling me when to press the button. i accidentially had my cursor over the wrong stop button. so i don't know what i am more pissed about.
the fact that i fucked up, or the fact that i fuck up and have no clue what i am doing. I think i know, but the prof. tends to show me otherwise. IF i pass this lab, i will be happy. I can't stand the thought of having to do this again next year.
I've talked to others, and they aren't doing that badly. Others also say that the labs after this aren't that bad, either. I really really hope they are right, because right now, i am frustrated beyond frustration. I had to bite my wrist to prevent me from pacing around frantically. I feel very shitty. Thanks to my fellow classmates, for telling me to not worry about it.
as for the data, we got data from another group, and we can still do our report. thats good, i guess.
OTHER than that, today kinda sucked still. worked for 3 hours on the report due today, and skipped lunch. i haven't eaten since 7:30 this morning. and that was only swiss cake rolls.
the only good news today is that i rocked out a thermodynamics exam. i got a 13.5 out of 25. not bad when the average was a 9.6.
my neck is still swolen. hasn't gone down. right now i really wish i were sick enough not to get out of bed to take a break from everything that seems to be falling apart. oh well, you have that sometimes.
Tomorrow is a new day, and i really don't want to think about school anymore. I'm going to go home, lay down, and try to relax. I am on the verge of breaking down right now.