i want a girl who will laugh for no one else
yep, weezer.
i have come to the decision today that for the past i dont even know how many months i have been lied to and decieved. truth be told, i kinda expected it but that doesn't mean that i BY ANY MEANS have to like it. i feel like such a fucking idiot. i know the feeling that i have right now, all too well. i just dont even know why the hell i didn't notice all this bullshit a long time ago. maybe i didn't want to...i am so not motivated. for anything. graduate school applications are coming along slowly and im starting to wonder if i even want to go anymore. i think it might just be easier to saw screw it and not go. its hard enough to get up for school in the morning or to drag myself into work, which i absolutly detest right now. winter break is coming soon, which means finals are coming even sooner and i am so fucked it is unimaginable. but i could really care less. im going to get through the year and that will be the end of it.
is any of this worth it?
....absolutly not.
i have come to the decision today that for the past i dont even know how many months i have been lied to and decieved. truth be told, i kinda expected it but that doesn't mean that i BY ANY MEANS have to like it. i feel like such a fucking idiot. i know the feeling that i have right now, all too well. i just dont even know why the hell i didn't notice all this bullshit a long time ago. maybe i didn't want to...i am so not motivated. for anything. graduate school applications are coming along slowly and im starting to wonder if i even want to go anymore. i think it might just be easier to saw screw it and not go. its hard enough to get up for school in the morning or to drag myself into work, which i absolutly detest right now. winter break is coming soon, which means finals are coming even sooner and i am so fucked it is unimaginable. but i could really care less. im going to get through the year and that will be the end of it.
is any of this worth it?
....absolutly not.