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You know what i'd like? I'd like my Livejournal to contain substance, like other peoples. I write in here a bit, but it's just banal crap. There's a lot of people on my friends list who have journals that are always so kickarse to read. They always have something to write about!
Lately i've felt the urge to write in here. I just want to be able to sit down and write about meaninful, interesting things!
There's a few things i'd like to write in here, and just get off my chest and out in the open. But i know the persons in question read it and to be honest, i'm petrified of the repercussions that me opening up could have.
Yeah, i know i could just make a private entry only i could see, but there's no gratification in that. I already know, i just can't tell everyone else at the moment. Grr.
Anyway...I feel like i really have no direction in life at the moment. Besides my insatiable obsession with moving to America, what else do i have?
I'm not depressed, but i'm not content. I'm kind of hovering around in an indifferent limbo. I have a great group of friends and a good relationship with my family. But i know my family isn't always going to be there, and my friends are going to head off on their paths.
I'm 21. 22 in a few weeks. It's time to reassess my life and angle it towards a future that i'm going to be able to look back on in 50 years time and say "You did good Adi".
I went to bed last night, but i couldn't sleep. I still haven't, my brain wouldn't switch off. I kept thinking about how quickly i've grown up! I thought about me, 10 years ago. I had all these ideas about where i would be now. Back then, thinking about being in my 20's seemed light years away, it seemed so old!. I just took for granted, when i was that age, that by now i'd have some awesome career, a husband and maybe some kids(scary :P). I wish i was 10 again, life was simple back then. But then again, i wasn't allowed to drink tequila when i was 10, so screw that :P
Anyway, from today, i'm going to make an effort to stop pissfarting around and do something with my life.
xox
Lately i've felt the urge to write in here. I just want to be able to sit down and write about meaninful, interesting things!
There's a few things i'd like to write in here, and just get off my chest and out in the open. But i know the persons in question read it and to be honest, i'm petrified of the repercussions that me opening up could have.
Yeah, i know i could just make a private entry only i could see, but there's no gratification in that. I already know, i just can't tell everyone else at the moment. Grr.
Anyway...I feel like i really have no direction in life at the moment. Besides my insatiable obsession with moving to America, what else do i have?
I'm not depressed, but i'm not content. I'm kind of hovering around in an indifferent limbo. I have a great group of friends and a good relationship with my family. But i know my family isn't always going to be there, and my friends are going to head off on their paths.
I'm 21. 22 in a few weeks. It's time to reassess my life and angle it towards a future that i'm going to be able to look back on in 50 years time and say "You did good Adi".
I went to bed last night, but i couldn't sleep. I still haven't, my brain wouldn't switch off. I kept thinking about how quickly i've grown up! I thought about me, 10 years ago. I had all these ideas about where i would be now. Back then, thinking about being in my 20's seemed light years away, it seemed so old!. I just took for granted, when i was that age, that by now i'd have some awesome career, a husband and maybe some kids(scary :P). I wish i was 10 again, life was simple back then. But then again, i wasn't allowed to drink tequila when i was 10, so screw that :P
Anyway, from today, i'm going to make an effort to stop pissfarting around and do something with my life.
xox