2011
Goodbye 2010. You were a bitch.
All I got out of you this year was gaping hole in my heart. And everyday since the new year it’s been a constant struggle to bandage it up somehow, however temporary, just to function and go through the day. Sometimes I wish life was like my dreams. Perfect. Effortless. Everything going the way I want it to. Too bad I have to wake up.
Nobody wants to hear this, but the person that you want the most is sometimes the person you’re best without. You were everything that was bad for me. Make no mistake I’m crushed black and blue. I should’ve known. I guess I can say I have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for me.
Your picture is up on my wall. It's not even a good picture of you. I've seen better looking smiles but there's just something about that smile, that side-ways smirk on your face when you smile, leaves me with an aching tingle in my chest. I've always loved that smile. The silence isn't so bad 'til I look at my hands &feel sad cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
All I got out of you this year was gaping hole in my heart. And everyday since the new year it’s been a constant struggle to bandage it up somehow, however temporary, just to function and go through the day. Sometimes I wish life was like my dreams. Perfect. Effortless. Everything going the way I want it to. Too bad I have to wake up.
Nobody wants to hear this, but the person that you want the most is sometimes the person you’re best without. You were everything that was bad for me. Make no mistake I’m crushed black and blue. I should’ve known. I guess I can say I have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for me.
Your picture is up on my wall. It's not even a good picture of you. I've seen better looking smiles but there's just something about that smile, that side-ways smirk on your face when you smile, leaves me with an aching tingle in my chest. I've always loved that smile. The silence isn't so bad 'til I look at my hands &feel sad cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.