last night was fucked up! sorry
wow well last night was a hoot! my friends from school, stacy, cortney, and lisbeth came over to my dorm and we all started taking shots! but the catch is it was at like 7:00...when we have nothing to do, we drink...so of course i got fucked up really early and for some reason had this wave of anger come across me...weird. so they all went outside and i was watching the britney megamix video...for some reason i got mad...retarted! so i went outside and i guess i gave lisbeth this rude ass look and i honestly didn't mean to, well actually , who knows if i meant it...i just hope i didn't because she is a very nice girl! so then they were like, we are gonna go back to stacy's dorm be back in a second...so i was like whatev...i was on the phone anyway! so two hours go by and i hadn't heard from them so i got pissed...i shouldn't have at all! it was definitely uncalled for and i am sorry about that! my reasoning when i was drunk, i think, was they were all getting fucked up and hangin out without me! that is totally not a big deal, so i don't know why i tripped out so much about it! once again...uncalled for! so then i am all drunk in front of the building and the cops show up! so i'm like FUCK...but everything was cool and i was all talkin and makin jokes with the cop...great! so outside on the picnic table, i just did some stupid shit like laughin loud and just making a fool out of myself! and i honestly regret it because i don't like the feeling in the morning like...so fucking embarrassed! anyway, we go in stacy's room and just chill..i met some of her friends and they were cool! so we are chilling and then josh called me and i was like sorry, i can't talk no it is too hard..ya know! so i hung up the phone and i guess i was just so worked up about the whole situation that i just stormed out of the room..and on my way out i slamed the shit out of mike! SORRY SORRY SORRY...i just didn't want them to see me upset, because i didn't want to bring down their night! but of course, i was an ass and got all pissed cuz they didn't get me cigs from the store! big deal GOD! so i am sorry about that! so i leave and then i go to my dorm, stumble in and get my keys and go to the gas station...i fucking drove! i am so pissed off at myself i can't even out it in words! that is the kinda thing you think about what if i did it and couldn't control myself...well i definitely couldn't! so on the way to my car i see stacy and she's like if you leave i will be pissed..so of course i was like whatev and just kept on walking! i should have stopped, but i didn't! so i send this bitch ass message to her like "if you would have cared then you would have stopped me!" like honestly! what a shady comment and it just makes me look so bad and not to mention it was a rude comment, so i am sorry about that too! to make a really long story even shorter lol i texted her again like fuck you randomly during the night...then i called her and was like stop bitching about me driving drunk when you made me do it when we drove in muskegon this weekend! and that was it!!! that comment made me officially an ASS HOLE and just a fuckin ASS!!! i am so sorry about what i said to you stacy and lisbeth!!!! i don't know why i got so mad all of last night! it was uncalled for and i really regret it! i lost control and i shouldn't have...thank you for caring about me and trying to stop me from driving drunk! i appreciate it! so if you will please accept my apology and stacy please let your friends know that i am really sorry if i was an ass to them in any way! you know i am never like this!!! i don't know what happened! i had no reason to be upset with you guys and i an truely sorry..... W T F mate!! :-P