I'm Not Sad...I'm Pissed!
Just when i thought i had left all the petty high school lying about shit drama bull behind me...apparently i havent...shit is coming back to haunt me from fucking 300 miles away. I mean fuck i cared about the asshole and he lies about it not only originally but fucking after hes called on it by his best friend...what the fuck??? What is the problem with guys? You know what im glad i fucking moved...i dont need this shit...i dont. I just want to fucking move on with my fucking life...i want to meet someone better...someone who will care for me and not lie about what we did or didnt do...theres no fucking pt to lying when its your own damn fault. ASSHOLE!!
UGH I fucking cannot stand guys i cant...it just makes me mad...im passed crying about this shit im just fed up with it.
On a lighter note...I'm going home from the 15-17th of October to go with Paula to the Yellowcard show which does make me feel a little better. I get to see my friends who actually care about me and make me feel better being around. I get to sleep in my bed that doesnt squeak to no end when my muscle spasms...
On the other hand i am starting to really get into school and i am glad i moved here. I am glad im starting my life over...im glad that i have classes that are interesting except maybe one but its once a week...im glad i have time to spend with friends here and get my work done and study...its so much easier to manage my time here than it ever was in high school. It makes me feel as though maybe i can do this...i can suceed...sometimes i feel as though i dont belong in my major i dont belong with all these people who have been serious breeders, trainers, riders, showers all their life and i worked with minis and dont know too much about riding and what not and feel like maybe im kinda out cast considering what some of these people know but just because i dont have that experience they do doesnt mean i dont belong...i just have a different experience and thats what makes me special and unique. Ugh im so corny and im rambling...congrats if you actually read this...i just needed to vent and now im done.
I saw Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow...it was awesome...great effects, story, and acting...i highly recommend it. The effects alone is worth the money to go see.
Thats all i need to study some readings for ag 101...so back to being a good student...night all.
UGH I fucking cannot stand guys i cant...it just makes me mad...im passed crying about this shit im just fed up with it.
On a lighter note...I'm going home from the 15-17th of October to go with Paula to the Yellowcard show which does make me feel a little better. I get to see my friends who actually care about me and make me feel better being around. I get to sleep in my bed that doesnt squeak to no end when my muscle spasms...
On the other hand i am starting to really get into school and i am glad i moved here. I am glad im starting my life over...im glad that i have classes that are interesting except maybe one but its once a week...im glad i have time to spend with friends here and get my work done and study...its so much easier to manage my time here than it ever was in high school. It makes me feel as though maybe i can do this...i can suceed...sometimes i feel as though i dont belong in my major i dont belong with all these people who have been serious breeders, trainers, riders, showers all their life and i worked with minis and dont know too much about riding and what not and feel like maybe im kinda out cast considering what some of these people know but just because i dont have that experience they do doesnt mean i dont belong...i just have a different experience and thats what makes me special and unique. Ugh im so corny and im rambling...congrats if you actually read this...i just needed to vent and now im done.
I saw Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow...it was awesome...great effects, story, and acting...i highly recommend it. The effects alone is worth the money to go see.
Thats all i need to study some readings for ag 101...so back to being a good student...night all.