I was wrong about you (2/?)
Title: I was wrong about you (2/?)
Author: Chewinggum20
Rating: NC-13 - deals with Cancer, may be a trigger
Length: 1400
Spoilers: None really but season one just to be safe
Summary: Rachel has left McKinley and nobody knows why. Nobody really cares and nobody is happier then Quinn that the diva is finally gone, that is until one chance meeting changes everything.
Chapter one: http://chewinggum20.livejournal.com/1053.html
Chapter 2:
“Q…Quinn what are you doing here?” Rachel sat up with as much speed as her body would allow her. She looked at the blond, who had her hands still over her mouth. Feeling slight self conscious she raised her hand up to rub over her balding scalp. “Oh God” and she reached over to the bandana on the night stand and began to tie it around the top of her head. Embarrassed she looked at her hands cradled in her lap “Sorry”
Quinn was unsure how she felt. She wanted to cry out of fear, empathy or guilt she wasn’t sure which, probably all three. She heard the girl apologise and her heart broke.
“I…I…What are you doing here…oh god sorry I know why you’re here but…when…how” She knew she never made much sense but at the moment this whole situation made no sense. She was unable to move and she was beginning to feel like a complete idiot.
Rachel began to fidget; she really hadn’t planned for this. She didn’t want anyone at McKinley to find out especially the blonde that was still just standing at the base of her bed mouth slightly agape. There was a silence as both tried to feel comfortable in the situation they found themselves in. Rachel looked up at Quinn and saw the girl divert her gaze from her.
“I’m sorry you had to see me like this Quinn but why are you here, is one of these a family member?” she asked timidly trying to make conversation
.
“err… Um… no I…I’m on a volunteer thing with the church, I…Err sorry but what happened?”
“Cancer happened Quinn” Rachel could always be trusted to be blunt.
“I know that but when did it happen, you weren’t even ill or anything”
“I was diagnosed over the summer, spent most of it in here getting treatment … So is this your first day volunteering here?”
“Uh yeah … what type of Cancer have you got?”
“Leukaemia. So are you enjoying it so far…volunteering I mean”
“I dunno I only just got here really … how come nobody knows at school?”
“I guess I’m not really friends with anyone enough to worry them, besides what can anyone do?”
“Finn’s your boyfriend, didn’t you tell him?”
“No Finn and I broke up at the start of summer, are you just going to question me about my being here Quinn?”
Quinn looked at her and sighed, “Sorry I didn’t mean to…it’s just a shock I guess. Oh god I’m completely doing the opposite of what Steve told us” she softly face planted the palm of her hand.
“Who’s Steve?”
“Our volunteer organizer”
“Oh…”
Silence fell over them once more.
“You can sit down” Rachel pointed to the chair beside the bed and saw Quinn eye it hesitantly. “Or you can go, it’s up to you”
Quinn sat down slowly but immediately began to feel awkward again, she stared at the hospital band around Rachel’s wrist. She couldn’t remember how long she was staring at it before a male voice disrupted her.
“Hey Rachel, how are you feeling today?” The doctor stood quite casually at the base of the bed, flipping through the charts and nodding at what he was looking at.
“Oh well I’m okay I guess. I haven’t been sick today and my gums aren’t as sore so I suppose today is a better day”
Quinn caught the brunette give a smile and couldn’t help but notice it was missing something, she looked back up at the doctor who gave a small nod of his head and a smile.
“That’s good to hear, so are you ready for the next course of Chemo?”
“Not really but I have no choice do I ... Oh sorry Quinn this is Dr. Hughes, Doctor this is Quinn, a girl from school”
The pair exchanged nods before the doctor focused on Rachel again.
“So the nurse will be around shortly, I’ll be back after okay”
“Okay” she smiled at the doctor who smiled back and walked away.
Quinn looked back at Rachel, “I could go, I’m sure you don’t want me here while you’re having your treatment”
“You can stay, having someone to talk to while its happening will help take my mind off of it anyway … Only if you want”
Quinn nodded and sat there still. She really didn’t know what to say. Guilt was slowly consuming her, this girl she had been torturing since forever had been dealing with this all summer and she couldn’t help but feel like a complete jerk for acting the way she had toward her.
“So how is school?” Rachel asked trying to avoid the silences that fell between them.
“Erm … well everyone is wondering where you are actually, your disappearance is the talk of the school. Besides that nothing much, just the same I guess.”
Another silence.
“I shouldn’t be here” Quinn began to stand unable to cope with the guilt she felt any longer, she glanced at Rachel and saw the wounded expression on her face, “I’m sorry but I have been nothing but horrible to you for years and frankly I feel like a bitch right now” Quinn avoided eye contact with the small brunette and turned to leave.
“please stay” She heard Rachel whisper. She turned back round to face her and saw tears fall softly down her cheeks. ”I know our past isn’t exactly ideal Quinn but You’re the only one besides my dads that has visited me this morning. Please stay.”
Quinn was fighting to stop her own tears from falling now, she slowly made her way back to the chair she was sitting on. “ Where are your dads?”
“work … they left this morning. It gets kinda lonely here without anybody”
“I’m sorry Rachel … for all the crap I put you through.” Quinn lowered her head unable to stop her tears any longer.
“Forget about it Quinn, you stayed when I asked you to and that means a lot, so thank-you”
Quinn lifted her head and their eyes met properly for the first time and both of the girls smiled. Quinn immediately relaxed.
“So tell me how your summer has been so far, it will be nice to hear there is life out there besides this hospital” Rachel asked genuinely excited to hear Quinn’s answer.
So Quinn told her everything making sure not to leave out any details. She found herself laughing when Rachel would giggle at something amusing within the story; and she smiled when she realised that Rachel was no where near as annoying as Quinn had made herself believe all this time. Eventually the nurse came and while answering the 101 questions Rachel was firing at her, Quinn was also paying attention to everything the nurse was doing as she attached a IV bag of fluid to a line that went directly into Rachel’s chest. After everything that was Quinn’s summer was told, it fell silent between the pair again.
“Does it hurt…The tubes in your chest and everything?” She asked as curiosity got the better of her.
“At first it did but not anymore. it’s the side effects from the chemo that are the worst, I get really sick its not nice.”
Quinn nodded her head. “I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all this on your own Rachel”
“Thank you Quinn. Its been nice having you here today, its made what would have been another boring day much more entertaining.”
Quinn smiled, “Well maybe I can stop by tomorrow, see how you are … that’s if you don’t mind of course”
Rachel’s smile almost lit up the room, “That would be lovely” she yawned, “sorry all our talking has tired me out”
“wow Rachel Berry getting tired from talking, I never thought I’d see the day” Quinn laughed and Rachel giggled too “I better get going” she glanced at her watch and her eyes widened, “wow I’ve been here nearly 3 hours I should definitely leave you now to get some sleep”
Quinn looked down at her hand, which at some point while talking had somehow managed to grab Rachel’s in a comforting squeeze. Rachel squeezed back. “I’ll see you tomorrow then”
“yup, now get some sleep”
Rachel rolled her eyes “ okay mum, thanks again for staying today”
“no problem, bye Rach”
“Yea bye Quinn”
Rachel’s smile never left her face until her eyes closed and she fell asleep.
Author: Chewinggum20
Rating: NC-13 - deals with Cancer, may be a trigger
Length: 1400
Spoilers: None really but season one just to be safe
Summary: Rachel has left McKinley and nobody knows why. Nobody really cares and nobody is happier then Quinn that the diva is finally gone, that is until one chance meeting changes everything.
Chapter one: http://chewinggum20.livejournal.com/1053.html
Chapter 2:
“Q…Quinn what are you doing here?” Rachel sat up with as much speed as her body would allow her. She looked at the blond, who had her hands still over her mouth. Feeling slight self conscious she raised her hand up to rub over her balding scalp. “Oh God” and she reached over to the bandana on the night stand and began to tie it around the top of her head. Embarrassed she looked at her hands cradled in her lap “Sorry”
Quinn was unsure how she felt. She wanted to cry out of fear, empathy or guilt she wasn’t sure which, probably all three. She heard the girl apologise and her heart broke.
“I…I…What are you doing here…oh god sorry I know why you’re here but…when…how” She knew she never made much sense but at the moment this whole situation made no sense. She was unable to move and she was beginning to feel like a complete idiot.
Rachel began to fidget; she really hadn’t planned for this. She didn’t want anyone at McKinley to find out especially the blonde that was still just standing at the base of her bed mouth slightly agape. There was a silence as both tried to feel comfortable in the situation they found themselves in. Rachel looked up at Quinn and saw the girl divert her gaze from her.
“I’m sorry you had to see me like this Quinn but why are you here, is one of these a family member?” she asked timidly trying to make conversation
.
“err… Um… no I…I’m on a volunteer thing with the church, I…Err sorry but what happened?”
“Cancer happened Quinn” Rachel could always be trusted to be blunt.
“I know that but when did it happen, you weren’t even ill or anything”
“I was diagnosed over the summer, spent most of it in here getting treatment … So is this your first day volunteering here?”
“Uh yeah … what type of Cancer have you got?”
“Leukaemia. So are you enjoying it so far…volunteering I mean”
“I dunno I only just got here really … how come nobody knows at school?”
“I guess I’m not really friends with anyone enough to worry them, besides what can anyone do?”
“Finn’s your boyfriend, didn’t you tell him?”
“No Finn and I broke up at the start of summer, are you just going to question me about my being here Quinn?”
Quinn looked at her and sighed, “Sorry I didn’t mean to…it’s just a shock I guess. Oh god I’m completely doing the opposite of what Steve told us” she softly face planted the palm of her hand.
“Who’s Steve?”
“Our volunteer organizer”
“Oh…”
Silence fell over them once more.
“You can sit down” Rachel pointed to the chair beside the bed and saw Quinn eye it hesitantly. “Or you can go, it’s up to you”
Quinn sat down slowly but immediately began to feel awkward again, she stared at the hospital band around Rachel’s wrist. She couldn’t remember how long she was staring at it before a male voice disrupted her.
“Hey Rachel, how are you feeling today?” The doctor stood quite casually at the base of the bed, flipping through the charts and nodding at what he was looking at.
“Oh well I’m okay I guess. I haven’t been sick today and my gums aren’t as sore so I suppose today is a better day”
Quinn caught the brunette give a smile and couldn’t help but notice it was missing something, she looked back up at the doctor who gave a small nod of his head and a smile.
“That’s good to hear, so are you ready for the next course of Chemo?”
“Not really but I have no choice do I ... Oh sorry Quinn this is Dr. Hughes, Doctor this is Quinn, a girl from school”
The pair exchanged nods before the doctor focused on Rachel again.
“So the nurse will be around shortly, I’ll be back after okay”
“Okay” she smiled at the doctor who smiled back and walked away.
Quinn looked back at Rachel, “I could go, I’m sure you don’t want me here while you’re having your treatment”
“You can stay, having someone to talk to while its happening will help take my mind off of it anyway … Only if you want”
Quinn nodded and sat there still. She really didn’t know what to say. Guilt was slowly consuming her, this girl she had been torturing since forever had been dealing with this all summer and she couldn’t help but feel like a complete jerk for acting the way she had toward her.
“So how is school?” Rachel asked trying to avoid the silences that fell between them.
“Erm … well everyone is wondering where you are actually, your disappearance is the talk of the school. Besides that nothing much, just the same I guess.”
Another silence.
“I shouldn’t be here” Quinn began to stand unable to cope with the guilt she felt any longer, she glanced at Rachel and saw the wounded expression on her face, “I’m sorry but I have been nothing but horrible to you for years and frankly I feel like a bitch right now” Quinn avoided eye contact with the small brunette and turned to leave.
“please stay” She heard Rachel whisper. She turned back round to face her and saw tears fall softly down her cheeks. ”I know our past isn’t exactly ideal Quinn but You’re the only one besides my dads that has visited me this morning. Please stay.”
Quinn was fighting to stop her own tears from falling now, she slowly made her way back to the chair she was sitting on. “ Where are your dads?”
“work … they left this morning. It gets kinda lonely here without anybody”
“I’m sorry Rachel … for all the crap I put you through.” Quinn lowered her head unable to stop her tears any longer.
“Forget about it Quinn, you stayed when I asked you to and that means a lot, so thank-you”
Quinn lifted her head and their eyes met properly for the first time and both of the girls smiled. Quinn immediately relaxed.
“So tell me how your summer has been so far, it will be nice to hear there is life out there besides this hospital” Rachel asked genuinely excited to hear Quinn’s answer.
So Quinn told her everything making sure not to leave out any details. She found herself laughing when Rachel would giggle at something amusing within the story; and she smiled when she realised that Rachel was no where near as annoying as Quinn had made herself believe all this time. Eventually the nurse came and while answering the 101 questions Rachel was firing at her, Quinn was also paying attention to everything the nurse was doing as she attached a IV bag of fluid to a line that went directly into Rachel’s chest. After everything that was Quinn’s summer was told, it fell silent between the pair again.
“Does it hurt…The tubes in your chest and everything?” She asked as curiosity got the better of her.
“At first it did but not anymore. it’s the side effects from the chemo that are the worst, I get really sick its not nice.”
Quinn nodded her head. “I’m sorry you’ve had to go through all this on your own Rachel”
“Thank you Quinn. Its been nice having you here today, its made what would have been another boring day much more entertaining.”
Quinn smiled, “Well maybe I can stop by tomorrow, see how you are … that’s if you don’t mind of course”
Rachel’s smile almost lit up the room, “That would be lovely” she yawned, “sorry all our talking has tired me out”
“wow Rachel Berry getting tired from talking, I never thought I’d see the day” Quinn laughed and Rachel giggled too “I better get going” she glanced at her watch and her eyes widened, “wow I’ve been here nearly 3 hours I should definitely leave you now to get some sleep”
Quinn looked down at her hand, which at some point while talking had somehow managed to grab Rachel’s in a comforting squeeze. Rachel squeezed back. “I’ll see you tomorrow then”
“yup, now get some sleep”
Rachel rolled her eyes “ okay mum, thanks again for staying today”
“no problem, bye Rach”
“Yea bye Quinn”
Rachel’s smile never left her face until her eyes closed and she fell asleep.