I miss my moosie
~I never thought any one person could miss another so much. Could miss all the pain in the ass things that they could do. I acutally miss Thomas' taking over the bed, hoggin the t.v. (i don't know what the hell to watch anymore!) Giggling over stupid shit and bugging the hell out of me. thats me for you, i bitch about it more often then not, but still i miss him. like cuddling with him, and having him just here to talk to about whatever i want. I mean hes such a sweet guy, how could anyone blame me for missing him. but i really feel as if i am pathic right now for missing him so much. its not like i won't see him again. but still. it makes me feel stupid for missing him soo soo much. *i wouldn't tell him that* I just hope he misses me as much as i miss him. I hope this gets easier as time goes on. I didn't cry when he left this time. I fought back from doing it. although trust me I wanted to. Sad huh, and i know its not just because im pregant. its because i am so use to him being around me. making me laugh, making me feel as if im somebody, always going out of his way to make me happy. *i miss doing the same for him*
Im really sad and pathic ain't i????? i can't help it, i love him to death. i never thought that i could love anyone as much as i love him, and the funniest thing is he says the same thing about me too. When he calls me he has to tell me he loves me like five times before we hang up the phone. he'll say i love you, then i'll say it and he'll say it again and again.
i miss him, i love him, and i want him home with me....*although he'll never know that. only because i know him, and he'll drop this.* which is something he is already thinking of doing just that. BUT THATS NOT BECAUSE OF ME. he's thinking that hes not going to like it at all. because he doesn't like being alone.....hmmmmmmmmm...... I haven't told me that i would rather him be home. instead i told him the choice is his, but i want him not to give up so soon. to try until he knows for sure.... which is the truth. im dealing, and i know it will get easier with time. as time goes on....but i miss him...and thats enough....
Im really sad and pathic ain't i????? i can't help it, i love him to death. i never thought that i could love anyone as much as i love him, and the funniest thing is he says the same thing about me too. When he calls me he has to tell me he loves me like five times before we hang up the phone. he'll say i love you, then i'll say it and he'll say it again and again.
i miss him, i love him, and i want him home with me....*although he'll never know that. only because i know him, and he'll drop this.* which is something he is already thinking of doing just that. BUT THATS NOT BECAUSE OF ME. he's thinking that hes not going to like it at all. because he doesn't like being alone.....hmmmmmmmmm...... I haven't told me that i would rather him be home. instead i told him the choice is his, but i want him not to give up so soon. to try until he knows for sure.... which is the truth. im dealing, and i know it will get easier with time. as time goes on....but i miss him...and thats enough....