Everything is OKAY!!!
So... Gabriel and i had the talk. it was really dramatic, and we decided that we wouldnt see eachother anymore. well auctually, he decided that "it would be the best thing" and what am i supposed to say to that? no? so i said ok, and we hung up the phone! and right after we hung up i knew that wasnt what i wanted, i still wanted to be with him.i called my best friend kra and she told me... "what do u have to lose? call him back! you guys arent going to talk anymore anyways and if hes serious about not seeing you anymore then you havent lost anything. its not like high school when you have to see eachother everyday!" and she was SOO right! so i called him, and told him that us not being together was not what i wanted, and he didnt want that either!! WHOO HOO!!! so we are still together... and i couldnt be happier! i think this whole thing made us stronger! (i feel like a total cliche!) but im serious... i dont feel so afraid of letting myself go, dont get me wrong... this whole situation is totally scaring me, but i dont feel like im in it on my own. i know how he feels now, and thats totally comforting!