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long time coming long time gone
something new has taken my interest
something new has tickled my fancy
i wonder were i will go
i wonder when i wil lieave
-will i ever leave
-will i ever experiance the world?
or will i stay put and enjoy the ever present comfort on offer
i would love to know were i willo be
i want to understand my future
-yet i see nothing
....yet
all i see is smiling faces
all i want is great conversations
i am a big boy
i can make up my own mind
then why am i taking on so much input from others
why is it the feeling of ackomplishment only comes to me with reconishion
i need my own mind to know what i want
not what we want
i love the feeling of love
i love the feeling somebody loves me
but can that hold me away from my true dream?
shouldnT THAT feeling alow me to progress onto something higher
i thought support comes from love
i have become confussed with the notions of respect.
my words no longer have meaning
you ask for my imput yet my imput is frowned apon
so what if i am a grandpa on a sunday
so what if i feel like relaxing and enjoying the sun
i dont need to go anywhere
you dont need to go anywhere
everything happens for a reason,
and i was a fuckwit when i should have been there.
for thati apologise
- and i hope you are forgiving
because i am here