So.....this is really for Megan, to help out.
Well last night I couldnt really sleep when my head hit the pillow, so I attempted for about an hour or so... and I just kept getting really angry. So i got up, grabbed my computer and sent a big rant to Jeramie. It's nothing he did wrong, but it's a whole ton of things that I needed to get out and so I told him because I know that he wouldnt broadcast that to the world, cuz it was stuff I didnt want to put on a blog. *sigh* I still havent heard from him, and I'm hoping he's okay.
I realized last night there's a ton of confusion with all the guys in my life. lol. And I figured that I'd talk about them and try to clarify everything. So here goes...
Jeramie- Someone I can talk to honestly and openly, I trust him (unlike a lot of men). He's smart and the converstations we have are very enjoyable. He's a great friend. And I doubt it'll ever go any farther than frienship, and I'm okay with it... he's a really great friend, like I said... I trust him.
Rich- Another good friend. Sometimes I can openly talk in all honesty, but sometimes I cant.. he's sensitive and sometimes reminds me of a woman (it could be that bi thing...). He tends to get on my nerves kinda easily over the last couple months. He's been there for me through some pretty crarzy things this summer, he was one of the few people I knew I was able to at least semi-count on. He's a great friend.
Rob- I would say he's my best guy friend but that has become untrue this last year and a half. He's been busy with work and such. Rob and I have been friends since near the end of my sophomore year, he's been there through everything... through Andrew, Kyle, and Caleb. He was at musicals I was in, my choir concerts, and my graduation. He would come over to my house just to hang out. We'd go for walks and talk, and ultimately play around at the park.... even when it was starting to get cold. My junior year he took me to my Prom because I didnt have a date. And he went all out, a corsage, a nice car, all of it. He was a great date too. Ultimately Rob has been one of the best friends I've had to date. I trust him completely, with my life and all. He's the kind of guy I could fall in love with.
Josh- haha, Well, not as a great friend as the others, but he's a nice distraction. I love talking to him, he's always got something to say, he's very oppinnonated (much like Rob). He's a good guy, very into music. I met him thru Rob, so ususally talking about Rob means talking about Josh.
Rio- Well, I met him through Rob too, He's jailbate. My sisters age. He's a sweet kid though, I saw him over spring break last year and we were both wearing and ACDC shirt and he thought it was amazing lol. Not much else to say, he plays drums, and is good at it. ummmmm he's just a real sweet kid.
Nate- wow... what to say. this guy practically said he loved me when I was still wtih Caleb... granted he was drunk, but it definatly threw me for a loop. He's a great guy, really sweet. He's got some selfesteem issues that really upset me, so that's the main reason why i dont really talk to him much anymore cuz it pisses me off.... a lot.
Caleb Hughes- Ahhh the exfiance... well. I still love him. But, I'll always love him, and I know that, it's not going to change. I dont love him as much as I used to, and I'm sure gradually it'll lessen. He's a good guy, just way too into his video games, and has a tendancy not to give a crap about his girl until he's horney, she's showing signs of leaving, or she starts getting upset.. Otherwise he's very self-oriented. The question is... why do I love him? I have no flipping clue.
Ian Wisneski- lol. He's a good guy... sometimes. He's very self involved... 100% in fact. He's way too into causing shit, always trying to one up someone when something goes wrong... I care about him a lot, but he's one of those people you just cannnot stand anymore...
Billy- I highly doubt he'll ever read this. But I love him, he's so great. Kaci's extremely lucky.
I'll add on more later.
I realized last night there's a ton of confusion with all the guys in my life. lol. And I figured that I'd talk about them and try to clarify everything. So here goes...
Jeramie- Someone I can talk to honestly and openly, I trust him (unlike a lot of men). He's smart and the converstations we have are very enjoyable. He's a great friend. And I doubt it'll ever go any farther than frienship, and I'm okay with it... he's a really great friend, like I said... I trust him.
Rich- Another good friend. Sometimes I can openly talk in all honesty, but sometimes I cant.. he's sensitive and sometimes reminds me of a woman (it could be that bi thing...). He tends to get on my nerves kinda easily over the last couple months. He's been there for me through some pretty crarzy things this summer, he was one of the few people I knew I was able to at least semi-count on. He's a great friend.
Rob- I would say he's my best guy friend but that has become untrue this last year and a half. He's been busy with work and such. Rob and I have been friends since near the end of my sophomore year, he's been there through everything... through Andrew, Kyle, and Caleb. He was at musicals I was in, my choir concerts, and my graduation. He would come over to my house just to hang out. We'd go for walks and talk, and ultimately play around at the park.... even when it was starting to get cold. My junior year he took me to my Prom because I didnt have a date. And he went all out, a corsage, a nice car, all of it. He was a great date too. Ultimately Rob has been one of the best friends I've had to date. I trust him completely, with my life and all. He's the kind of guy I could fall in love with.
Josh- haha, Well, not as a great friend as the others, but he's a nice distraction. I love talking to him, he's always got something to say, he's very oppinnonated (much like Rob). He's a good guy, very into music. I met him thru Rob, so ususally talking about Rob means talking about Josh.
Rio- Well, I met him through Rob too, He's jailbate. My sisters age. He's a sweet kid though, I saw him over spring break last year and we were both wearing and ACDC shirt and he thought it was amazing lol. Not much else to say, he plays drums, and is good at it. ummmmm he's just a real sweet kid.
Nate- wow... what to say. this guy practically said he loved me when I was still wtih Caleb... granted he was drunk, but it definatly threw me for a loop. He's a great guy, really sweet. He's got some selfesteem issues that really upset me, so that's the main reason why i dont really talk to him much anymore cuz it pisses me off.... a lot.
Caleb Hughes- Ahhh the exfiance... well. I still love him. But, I'll always love him, and I know that, it's not going to change. I dont love him as much as I used to, and I'm sure gradually it'll lessen. He's a good guy, just way too into his video games, and has a tendancy not to give a crap about his girl until he's horney, she's showing signs of leaving, or she starts getting upset.. Otherwise he's very self-oriented. The question is... why do I love him? I have no flipping clue.
Ian Wisneski- lol. He's a good guy... sometimes. He's very self involved... 100% in fact. He's way too into causing shit, always trying to one up someone when something goes wrong... I care about him a lot, but he's one of those people you just cannnot stand anymore...
Billy- I highly doubt he'll ever read this. But I love him, he's so great. Kaci's extremely lucky.
I'll add on more later.