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Well I'm discussing the moving thing wtih Billy. One of the things I haven't yet told him about. I hate not telling him things. He's unhappy about it all, said "I can understand being close to your family, but not up your butt." and I said "I think I'm being shoved up theirs". He's really upset, saying that my family's taking advantage of me through this. I dont know what to think about it.  I dont know what to say or do. Billy says that if I want to stay here I should, regardless of my family.... and just dont think I could do that. I love my family, I get along wtih them... but it wouldnt be home to me.

I'm scared, I dont know what to do.  I dont want everyone to think that I'm under their thumbs... which might be true, but still. I'm an adult... and I feel like a child. I dont know what to do. I'm crying because I'm so afraid. I dont know where to go, or what to say... *cries*

I'm going to Doc's tonight. Hopefully that'll cheer me up a bit. We'll see.

I'm outtie for now.