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I'm worried.
I'm beyond worried.
College is rushing up.
Is this for real?
All this indecisiveness is killing me.
I wish she could just know for sure about me.
Know that I was for real.
Maybe she doesn't want me through college.
Who knows.
I just wish I could tell if she was for real.
It barely seems like she is sometimes.
And if this other thing is more important.
Than I'm just irrelevant.
I want this to be permanent.
I'm sick of being alone.
So she's worried about me doing something at my mainly male college.
And I'm worried she'll get caught up in the "fun" at hers.
Ugh I hate so many "fun" things.
Still have the lonely back up plan if this fails...
I'm beyond worried.
College is rushing up.
Is this for real?
All this indecisiveness is killing me.
I wish she could just know for sure about me.
Know that I was for real.
Maybe she doesn't want me through college.
Who knows.
I just wish I could tell if she was for real.
It barely seems like she is sometimes.
And if this other thing is more important.
Than I'm just irrelevant.
I want this to be permanent.
I'm sick of being alone.
So she's worried about me doing something at my mainly male college.
And I'm worried she'll get caught up in the "fun" at hers.
Ugh I hate so many "fun" things.
Still have the lonely back up plan if this fails...