Graham part 2
This may go somewhere.
I just don't have any motivation to write.
He broke up with his now-ex very shortly after I wrote the last entry.
We had a date where we ended up at his church at night and he played for me and showed me how all the stops on the organ work and what they mean and do. Then he played my favorite hymn tune, from Jupiter. We were tipsy when we got to the church and I just kept thinking the whole time, "This is the best date, ever."
Before that, he also helped me prepare my Orpheus audition. At that point I wasn't sure I was interested in him at all, I was sort of just using him to help me prepare, but, with rallentandoes everywhere, he was amazingly with me, totally tuned in to what I was doing... I've never made music with a potential romantic interest before... and I think that's where the tide started to turn. Feeling totally tuned-in like that, holy shit, what a totally new experience. Totally, utterly new. I mean, I've felt tuned-in like that in musical settings, and maybe in even bigger ways (like the whole choir felt in South Korea) but it wasn't, and has never been, so... intimate.
So, he also says that he needs to be single for awhile and doesn't need anything serious right now, except that he's courting me really hard. Or maybe it feels really hard since I've been so single for so long and I haven't had anyone court me like this.... like, ever. I'll just go with it, I guess. There's no need to be overly judgy about what exactly is going on.
I just don't have any motivation to write.
He broke up with his now-ex very shortly after I wrote the last entry.
We had a date where we ended up at his church at night and he played for me and showed me how all the stops on the organ work and what they mean and do. Then he played my favorite hymn tune, from Jupiter. We were tipsy when we got to the church and I just kept thinking the whole time, "This is the best date, ever."
Before that, he also helped me prepare my Orpheus audition. At that point I wasn't sure I was interested in him at all, I was sort of just using him to help me prepare, but, with rallentandoes everywhere, he was amazingly with me, totally tuned in to what I was doing... I've never made music with a potential romantic interest before... and I think that's where the tide started to turn. Feeling totally tuned-in like that, holy shit, what a totally new experience. Totally, utterly new. I mean, I've felt tuned-in like that in musical settings, and maybe in even bigger ways (like the whole choir felt in South Korea) but it wasn't, and has never been, so... intimate.
So, he also says that he needs to be single for awhile and doesn't need anything serious right now, except that he's courting me really hard. Or maybe it feels really hard since I've been so single for so long and I haven't had anyone court me like this.... like, ever. I'll just go with it, I guess. There's no need to be overly judgy about what exactly is going on.