I don't know how to be close to anyone right now
I started getting close to my coworker, Charity. But she's young, and her work mistakes annoy me a lot. And I feel myself becoming bitchy the way I am at home when my roommates don't do things up to my standards. So then I just push away. We were hanging out nearly every night for awhile there. It was when we were trying to do P90x together. Then she had a hurt foot and we both fell off the wagon and we stopped hanging out as much. But she is still the closest semblance of closeness that I've had in... a long time. I don't really hang out with anyone anymore. I get invited to parties. I'm now in the choir people party group. That's nice. I like being there for that.
But how am I supposed to find my way in when my crush, Stephen, gets back to Dallas in May? I don't know how to be close to anyone. It's just a fairytale, anyway. How can I even be serious about dating a priest? I crush on the unattainable, and that is great, because then I don't have to have hope or expectations.
This is awfully morose compared to how I typically feel, generally. I just... don't know how to be close to people.
P.S. Episcopal priest. He can date and marry.
But how am I supposed to find my way in when my crush, Stephen, gets back to Dallas in May? I don't know how to be close to anyone. It's just a fairytale, anyway. How can I even be serious about dating a priest? I crush on the unattainable, and that is great, because then I don't have to have hope or expectations.
This is awfully morose compared to how I typically feel, generally. I just... don't know how to be close to people.
P.S. Episcopal priest. He can date and marry.