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i hate feeling like i do.
i hate my body, i hate myself.
i hate how people see me as i truely am.
i hate that i've made myself that way.
i hate how i need people.
i hate that who was once one of closest friends doesn't want me anymore.
sometimes you feel so desperate you just need someone to cling to, tell you it's okay and that they love you. i hate how i have no one like that, cause of how i am i scare them away.
i can't believe i feel this way because of what that asshole did to me. i can't, i shouldn't, he's not important.
i don't know who i am, i'm so lost in my own pathetic mind that i can't find my way. inside i'm a maze that always leads to a dead end, there is no solution to the problem that is my life.
how can i go on about myself when there are so many bigger problems out there. people other than me are in more difficult situations. i can't help being this selfish though.
trapt in my mind.