More bitchin.. sorry
** Yes, this is one of those days. I can feel it. I don't like to say that I hate someone, if I ever do I probably do not mean it. (there have been exceptions) I usually don't feel so much anger that I actually hate someone. Today... sadly... I have to say that I hate this place/job (minus Mom and Kathy of course).
I am seething with anger... I will have to come back later.... (I am about to the point of tears right now)
Well hours later, I am back.
** I do not know how or what to say to Julie but I want to. I don't care what her reason is for not telling me to my face. I am not a child nor am I some dumb lil bitch. I deserve to be respected enough to be asked or told directly to my face that I need to be trained. This leaving the work and a fuckin post-it note on my desk is so childish and demeaning to me. The kicker this time is the new 'Procedure List' that I have received. You know.. basically a list to tell me how to do my job.
What brought all this on is... Yesterday I was opening mail at the end of the day and... this is pretty much how it went...
How are you doing Melissa?
Good.
What ahve you been learning?
*shrug*
How's the training?
*shrug*
Have you been learning anything new?
*shakes head*
OH... *starts to pace between Julie and I* What can we do about this???
*I shrug*
*Julie ignores him*
*I answer phone call*
*Boss leaves office*
Well what does she want me to say? She doesn't do her job, she doesn't train me... She does bare minimum... why can't the rest of us do the least we can and reap the most rewards? Oh well... I really shouldn't worry about this. I should do what my heart tells me... leave.
** "Knowing your purpose motivates your life. Purpose always produces passion. Nothing energizes like a clear purpose. On the other hand, passion dissapates when you lack purpose. Just getting out of bed becomes a major chore. It is usually meaningless work, not overwork, that wears us down, saps our strength, and robs our joy."
This is the perfect lil excerpt from my current reading. There is more to the chapter but... this seems to fit so perfectly into today.
** Tonight is Panera and best buy with Megs. Thank goodness. I don't think I could just sit home and stew about this anymore. Maybe Megs will help me with my resume or at least give me tips.
** Why do people tell me, "You can't move!!" How selfish is that? I know some who say it with a laugh and don't really mean it. Yet there are those who are irritating me with this 'order'. To those I say... I am a grown woman and I don't need your opinion on what I do with my life, especially if it isn't hurting anyone. This may seem pointless... but I heard it just one to many times over the weekend.