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Did anyone ever see that episode of 'Boy Meets World' where Topanga gets the full scholarship to Yale but isn't sure she wants to go because of Corey? If not, its easy enough to imagine. That also means that it is easy to imagine what I am in right now. Last night after the concert (which was really good) I came home and checked my mail sitting on the bar. It was just the usual: bank statements, junk mail, adult material, and college stuff. I opened most of it, and found something in there I didn't really expect. It was a scholarship, a full one, to one of the best seminary schools in the country. Its in Missouri, away from anything I know in this world. That isn't what bothers me though, but its the fact that it is not what bothers me that bothers me, if that makes any sense. If I go, I will be giving up on something, or someone, that I really care about. It is probably one of the stupidest things I will do, give up $30,000 just for a shot at being with someone I care about. I am not sure yet, and I don't think I will be for a while.