a sad day in my world
This day has been the saddest and worst day of my life. Today a member of my family falls. The closest thing i have to a sister, my dog was put to sleep at approxamately 1:45 this afternoon. She died in my arms. its so hard to bare and even harder to write about. the vet came in she was familliar with jazz, my dog, and of course jazz was happy to see a new face. My dad comforted her as the vet gave jazz a drug to make her fall asleep anestesia. she let jazz go to roam around once more. i started to notice jazz getting a little clumsey and called her over to me. just as she came to my hand she collapsed as i caught her and gently layed her on her side looking into her eyes while she was still awake. the look of confusion in her eyes i will never forget. i kissed her on the top of her head and said my last goodbye while she could still hear it. she looked at me, blinked her eyes reopened them and then slowly closed them forever. she was not dead yet just sedated although when you are sedated you must have help with breathing. so since she had no help she stoped breathing. her heart remained beating. i picked her up and moved her to the sofa for the second part of the proceedure. she was so limp at this point. we started the second injection to finish the job the one that would stop her heart. i had my hnd on her chest the whole timefeeling the pulse rate get slower and slower until it had stopped. then she started to twitch. i couldent andle it anymore and broke down into and uncontrollable weep. into the kitchen and on my knees untill i was on all 4's, crying harder than i have cryed in my whole life. the deed was don and there was nothing i could do. my dog and sister of 16 years was now dead gone forever. we buried jazz in our backyard and i plan to visit her every july 31st. this day has forever been etched into my brain. you never really reaize how valuable and fragile life is untill it is taken away. she was gone so quick. just one minute she was there and the next poof she was gone. life can be taken awayso easily, never take it for granted, and and tonight and every night from now on spend some time with your pet, because if you dont you will regret it when they are gone. i know i do.