Days Continue Going By
So, it's been a lonnnnng time. How have you been? I've been really busy with everything.
Well, I found me someone to date. His name is Cree. We were together for around 9 months, had started dating July 1st of last year... but due to some conflicts in hygienic habits, and him starting to become pretty critical of me in hypothetical ways, I decided to end things before resentment took hold and festered.
I did everything I could think of to get him to shower, not wear the same underwear 3 days in a row, and brush his teeth... But he would ARGUE with me about it! Even when I removed most of the effort, just in case it was his invisible ailments acting up.
He dealt with rheumatoid arthritis, and eds. He also has some kind of stomach disorder with his tummy? I think it's peptic ulcer disease? But the thing is he loves to eat spicy food which is like the worst thing that you can feed and easily upset stomach. He also drinks a lot of soda which is very acidic, and like sour things which are very acidic. Then he doesn't take his omniprazole like he's supposed to.. he just didn't seem to want to do better. I know he also struggles with depression but I was more than happy to meet him in the middle. It's just the fact that he argued with me about not changing his hygiene habits even though he would start to smell after a few days. And if I can smell you? Then you need to shower. Because my nose doesn't even work very well half the time.
He also does not feed himself well at all. His executive function is extremely broken, and then, when I try to feed him, not be able to pick ANYTHING that sounds good to eat. His eating seems very disordered. An odd thing is that he only pees, like, twice a day.
He also thought that I needed reality therapy which I thought was very strange and hit me very wrong.
I talked to my friends about it and they thought it was very strange too. One of them felt like he might have been projecting a little bit. He would get on to me for having a "shopping addiction."
I guess it is a shopping addiction when you want to buy yourself a little treat off the internet like once every two months?
But here's the kicker, one of my friends moved to Mississippi and sold him her house. We sold a lot of things out of that house, Cree getting the bulk of it. But he did not put any of the money towards the repairs the house needs so he can live in it. It also is upsetting that he wouldn't sell it to me for what he paid for it, before they started doing any work on it. Which they've only painted rooms, and patched the roof. And yet here he is, spending his money on fast food and fun things, after having gotten on to me for how I'm spending my money and I was the one paying all of the communal bills. He did help pay the water bill for a few months but maybe about half the time that he was living with me, but that's it.
He also quit the two jobs he had in the time that he lived with me without consulting me first, it felt like he lied about quitting the last one. The friend that he worked with told me that they were both planning on quitting two days before they did and he never mentioned a thing about it.
I'm pretty sure we broke up close to the end of March or the beginning of April. I'm playing in two of his DnD campaigns.
Creee's Noah's age, so about 10 years younger than me?? He's also Collin's age, whomst I will talk about shortly.
Why am I apparently drawn to August Leos born in '97?
There is someone that I am actively pursuing, more so in the get-to-know-you way rn.
Mercy, I haven't felt butterflies this strongly since Noah or Roth. I feel like I'm floating after I get to talk with him, or if he simply sends me a meme
I didn't feel this with Cree or Jeff.
My chest gets so tight, right in the kokoro!
Today was the first time I called him to just chat for a while. We talked for a little over an hour!
Meow~! >^n.n^
I had to excuse myself to go back out to help my coworker, and bc I didn't wanna get in trouble for staying over my break, on the phone.
We talked a lot about what he does for a living. Which he does graphic design for sign company. We seem to have a similar taste in humor, which is always super lovely! It's actually very important thing to me.
Oh I do have to mention that I sadly lost Koé last year, he's buried on Cree's parents' property.
I'm glad that Grace parents liked me, I don't think they were happy when we broke up. I'm glad I'm still friends with his sister, she's really cool and she's so beautiful!
I'm still running my cosplay group. We've formed a nice, tight-knit lil family. We try to do to meet up twice a month, but it's hard since they shut down the theater in town.
No either have to go 30 minutes away or an hour away to see a movie. I'm honestly landed right back in the same situation of having to go up to inverness/birmingham from my hometown to watch a movie when I was a teenager .
Depending on how this goes I might be moving to Alabama in like 2 years, I don't know if Colin and I ended up dating.. maybe we could move to Atlanta? Man, a girl can dream.